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I am going to be honest here. . It hurts when people look at me and think I am perfect… and then they get to know me … and see I am a mess… and run..but this is not just a problem with me… its a problem with so many people… Yes… I am on fire for God… Yes… everything I post on facebook or twitter is about Christ. Yes every converstation I have ends up leading to Him… NO I am not perfect. I still have things I deal with… I fight daily… But to me… that is a Christian.. Knowing where you need to grow… and let Him do work. Yes.. I do fall flat on my face… yes I do get down… Yes I do sin when I get depressed. OH yes I still deal with depression although it is rare. My main problem is the curses that our put on my family and this house. For when I am outside this house I am whole.. but when I am inside I am half spirited when things start falling down. But that is me. It is who I am. But see… My walk is moving.. I am changed from the day I got saved… I am changed from the day I got on this mission team.. I am changed from the day I left for training camp.. I am changed from the day since I have been back.. My walk is forever moving for we always have more Identity to put in Christ. Being a Christian to me is… saying this…"I am asking You to be strong enough for the both of us" … see I know I am weak… I know I need His help. And that is OKAY!!! I am still a mighty warrior for Him! If He never gives up on us why do we give up on each other? Every believer still has some sort of mess. Noone will ever be perfect! I only know one man that was. And thats Jesus Christ! He is our example, but know we will never reach that point!
Some of you are prob asking where all this is coming from. Well.. these past two months I have really been through some tough times. Really in these past few weeks. And honestly.. I fell flaaaaaaat on my face. But see in times like this I love the book of Job! He truly reminds me to truly just give Jesus control. And I am thankful for that Word, because it reminds me to give Him praise for my tough times… for the times I have got off track….like these past few weeks. But this is NOT ABOUT ME… its not about who I was before Him… its not about who I am right now… It is about who He is! It is about what He has done through me! It is about where He is leading me! For those who pray for me I am so thankful for you. It helps so much! I am so ready to fight battles with my team! I am so ready to serve along them for 11 months! I am ready for our Nations! I am ready to serve Italy after The World Race with my squadmate Dura with a church there. My path has been laid out.. I will continue to fight… I will continue to proclaim His great Name. Satan is no match for my King! I am weak, but Jesus stands firm for me. I am thankful for this season through all the hurt… it was just preparing me for something great in His Kingdom! This blog prob seems like I am venting.. and I truly I am.. I had to let go of some things tonight and let Him deal with it in His way. So I thank you for listening and praying. But if you can take anything from all this mess… take this… When you come across someone in your life personally who is struggling… sinful…. whatever the case… do not run from them… be forgiving… do not judge… be their brother..sister..husband..wife…We all have mess. Its how we choose to deal with our mess that matters.. And for me… Christ is my Helper. Have compassion for those in different seasons. We all go through different things for different reasons. Accept your mess. Give it to God.. and keep moving forward. Never give up even when you fell as weak as I did. He has a
plan for you!!
And since I have your attention I am going to ask you to do something. Will you support my mission trip by being a monthly donor? I truly need more! I still have ways to go to be fully funded! I leave for Launch on Jan 10 so my blogging time will be cut. So please support me! Anything helps really! And another thing… KEEP praying for me! I truly want to keep honoring the things I have spoken out on . Declared… So keep praying I can be the Man of God he told me to be! Its easy when things are good but we are truly tested in the hard times! So please keep me in your prayers! It is all about His name. My imperfection makes me who I am. If we were all perfect we would not need Christ! Thanks guys. I love yall like I love my Reeses! Keep faith. Stay strong. His mighty angel armies surrond us! He will never let you go through something you cannot handle!!!! 2 more weeks till La Libertad, El Salvador!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU FATHER FOR YOUR GRACE AND LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU FOR LISTENING AND PRAYING <3
This is a picture of a high school retreat for First Baptist of Groves…. My church I will really miss yall.!!!
