See to many people today in Christianity just believe its meant to be easy….or we make the "outsiders" believe thats what our lives are like. When in reality the Christian walk so much more intense than a walk without Christ…So many of us want the blessings…the glory…the miracles, but we aren't willing to lay down our lives…give up everything…..walk through hell for Christ….so we pretty much tell Jesus…"you aren't worth the blood sweat and tears" ….what a slap in the face to Christ?
Now now..before you get angry with me for calling this out on people…let me just tell you that in the past week or so…I pretty much did the same thing….I was being a Jonah … ready to run away from my calling…ready to just go home and say I am done with it…I was done with all the pain inside me….all the constant battles….the war . I just wanted to frankly give up. It was so gut wrenching…. My family back home is going through such a struggle….and it killed me on the inside not to be able to be there…and truly trusting in God to take care of my family…and just to fight this battle on my knees….and along with that….I was going through so much personally. And I just got to a point one night and said I am done to myself… I was being Jonah…I know my callings….I know where I stand in HIs Kingdom…and a sense of the direction I am headed, but I did not care…I was just simply "over it" ….The next day I told my team leader Melissa…"with what's going on back home….and with what I am going through myself…I just don't have the strength"
You would think she would say "where we are weak He is strong." or…"lean on His strength He will pull you through"….nope….just simply said… He has given ME the strength to get through this … for I am a MIGHTY WARRIOR for Christ and this will not stop me. And this pretty much just went in line with another conversation I had with Pat that night…And amen for them…they shook me up and dusted me off.
So with all that….I want to say… You have to go through the Valley of Death to experience an intimate relationship with God….I cannot tell you how long you will have to be "under the cloud" , but you have to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel…God does not promise us from trials, but He does promise us He works out all things for our good for those who love Him. And now….He has grown me in my spiritual gifts..I hear His heartbeat so clearly…I hear His voice like never before ..I have my boldness back….I am who He made me to be…..I again accepted where He has placed me in His Kingdom. And there is no place Id rather be….And to be transparent as much as I can with you guys….All that i just went through this month is just to prepare my heart and soul for whats to come….There is always a bigger picture my brothers and sisters! Trust Him fully!
Honestly….this is nothing compared to what He has done in Malaysia this month…and to the host family (Pastor Thomas') and the fellow churches we helped….They got so encouraged by what God did through us this month….Pastor Thomas and His family are on fire like never before….God has so many divine appointments lined up for us on this trip and it is just a matter of us obeying the Spirit and walking through those doors. And with that…I know i am called to the remaining Nations…I know I am made for Africa and God is going to use me like crazy there…..so….I need you guys…I need you guys to be obedient to the Spirit as well….and see the need for this mission field….in Rwanda…Uganda…Tanzania…Nepal…and India….these Nations need our teams presence…my presence…for we our consumed by His presence…the same Spirit that rose Christ from the dead is inside of us….strongholds are and will continue to be knocked down everywhere we go. His love will spread like a wildfire…I need to raise about $1753 more BY JULY 1st! That is only a few days away! If I do not reach this deadline I WILL BE SENT HOME! But my God is able…and He will make a way for this to happen….so please… rise up to this occasion…let us be Nations that don't run….let us be Nations that RISE for He ROSE! All you have to do is go to my support me tab and give whatever amount you feel led to donate!
Thanks so much for all the prayers and support….Yall truly helped me get through this month! God bless you all! Praying for you all as well! Blessed to be yalls ambassador of Christ! I love you guys! If you have any questions feel free to email me ([email protected])
