I dont understand why there is injustice.
I dont understand why the innocent suffer.
I dont understand how He works
I dont know why He heals some and doesnt others.
I dont know why He created me
I dont why there is so much evil
I dont know why i cant cry
I dont understand how He created the World with such supreme intricacy and consistency
I dont know why i let insecurities get the best of me
I dont understand why Satan rebelled and why God created Him
I dont know why I am in Guatemala
but…
I do know that He has perfect love
and that love casts out all fear
I do know that i am right where i need to be
I do know He is a healer
I do know that I have freedom in Him
I do know that He exists with every ounce of my being
I do know that He wins
I do know that He is truth and life
I do know that earthly knowledge has no comparison to godly wisdom
I do know that the Holy Spirit lives inside and through us
I do know that i am more than a conqueror
I do know that my life before Jesus was merely scraps compared to now
I do know that God cannot reveal all truth because it wouldnt be called believing
Finally, I know that today when my team walked into prison and Jake preached the gospel, that mens hearts were healed. That grown men with all the exterior toughness and anger. Fell to their kness to praise the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. That the world would tell them to be tough and angry in jail in order to gain status among men, but they didnt. They let down their guard and covered the prison floor with tears. Not because of a brief emotion or need to perform, but because, behind those bars they are desperate for something, and the world would tell them to fill it with drugs, alcohol or violence, but instead they humbled themselves in front of their brothers and allowed Jesus to shine through.
I dont speak Quiche
i dont know what its like to be behind bars
i dont understand their culture
but..
I do know that Jesus healed hearts
i do know that those men will never be the same
I do know that God transforms
I do know that the same God that dug me out of my pit gave those men freedom today.
God exists. He never called us to be luke warm. That is passivity and its useless. So i choose to dive in. To surrender all that is me so that He increases and I decrease.
