Many people have been asking what I have learned while on the race, so I went through my journal and put together 12 “I used to think but now I know” statements.
I used to think that I was weak, unloved and unwanted. I used to think I was more of a burden to people than a friend. Now I know I am strong, capable and important. I know people love me and I am created with purpose.
I used to think that I had to be a missionary in order to be a “good Christian” or to make my family and church proud. Now I know that the Lord has CALLED me to international missions- and His approval is the only one that matters.
I used to think that God was like Santa: don’t get on his “naughty list” and maybe He will answer one of your prayers. Now I know that He is a fierce, wrathful, gentle Father who disciplines and has more authority than I can even comprehend.
I used to think India was the same throughout the country: full of bright colors, smog, Hinduism and elephants. Now I know that there is a place full of jungle and Christians called Northeast India, where tribals live who are invisible to the entire world.
I used to think being a leader meant leading in front of a group of people-chosen by them and with a leadership title. Now I know that leading in humility from the back is essential.
I used to think you had to choose between sass and gentleness: being gentle meant not being funny or without a personality. Now I know that Jesus was both-and I can be both too.
I used to think that discipline was just a harsh exercise of control or someone being bossy. Now I know that righteous discipline displays love deeper than letting things slide by.
I used to like rice and chicken…then I ate it every day for six months straight.
I used to think that some people or organizations didn’t have any flaws. I was blind to their mistakes or corruption. Now I know that there are flaws in everything and everyone-that is why we need Jesus.
I used to think that poverty was a lack of money, food, poor housing, bad education, etc. Now I know that poverty and loss is just a lack of Jesus.
I used to think that being bold meant being vocal. Now I know that boldness is actually respectfulness and sometimes it means being silent.
I used to think that time created relationships. Now I know that intentionality does.
