Hey all!
I have learned many lessons in life, but these two hold true!
1) Life is hard- we need Jesus &
2) God’s love NEVER changes.
Crap hits the fan often…Jesus is the only one who can clean up our mess.
It’s been far too long since my last blog and this blog will hopefully help to explain what’s all been going on in my life and how God has been using it in BIG ways! He is faithful! The title of this blog speaks for itself. I am at a place right now in life where the poop has hit the fan…but that’s okay BECAUSE of Jesus!
I can’t in words describe the beauty of Jesus and all He does. Over the course of the Race, I only got to see a smidgen of a smidgen of how He grabs a hold of hearts and moves in whimsical ways. And since being home, there have been many changes in life but My Jesus holds true! He came to bring life and life abundant, to bring dead people to life! That is the power of God’s love!
God’s love doesn’t change.
Since being home, my body/heart/spirit have been readjusting and literally everything in my life is changing. I came “home” to a new home, was offered a job in a different state, was offered many jobs within Ohio, had a new love interest (but wasn’t the right time), began finding new community, and was hit with huge amounts of emotions. My heart saw so much this past year, all of us did, and it was hard-great-amazing-challenging-and everything all rolled into one. But if I am being honest, this adjustment has been way harder than I thought.
Depression has hit me. Anxiety has hit me. Attack and it all.
Everything changing but Jesus holding still! God’s love forever powerful!
A prayer that I felt the Spirit guiding me to pray has been coming to mind often: “God I want more of You! Kill off anything within me that is displeasing to you.”
These hard times are making you “more like Jesus”. God made us in His image, but we mess up and are imperfect. He provides hope in Jesus, and as we continue to die more to our flesh, that gives more room to Him. But we need His help to do that. Jesus is our defibrillator…we were once dead, but now alive. And thank the Lord for the Holy Spirit’s help in our lives and God’s continued faithfulness to help us.
So today I found myself in the car…amidst my helplessness and My Jesus came. Thank the Holy Spirit for helping us to pray when we don’t have the words…”I need Jesus to spark my heart back to life.” This past year was a lot, home has been a lot, but God is bigger and I need His help to ease into these next steps.
I am beginning to apply for teaching jobs, seeking community, relationships, the whole 9! And I can do nothing apart from Jesus! He is my life support and when the sh*t hits the fan, He is still holding me. Right now through depression and so many emotions, none of which I expected or wanted, Jesus is holding me and holding me tight!
And with Him, I can do ALL things! Because my Jesus is the only thing holding me together right now and I want to be emptied of all of myself so that He can fill me. Life is hard right now and that’s okay. Jesus is worth it all because He paid it all. Love greater than death and life that leads to more life.
I will make it through this hard time. Because Jesus is near to the broken-hearted and loves us so much! Stay encouraged, that if depression, anxiety, hard times or anything seems like a mountain to you, that God is bigger and has a plan for it all!
Let Jesus hold you!
-V
