Tonight I decided to take a bike ride, it was a gorgeous evening with the sun nearing the horizon and the air was perfect, just the right temperature for yoga pants and a zip up. I strolled around, checking out a few cute houses that were for sale, slightly wishing I had enough money to buy a quaint place of my own. I kept going, noticing all the other people in town who thought it was a beautiful evening too, to take advantage of. I went farther than I expected enjoying the peace of mind with no ipod in my ears and no agenda. Evenings like these are my favorite times on earth, the characteristics of fall evident and all around me. As I was readying to return home, I realized I was doing it again. This bike ride I was on, was very similar to my life, I was just coasting through it.
At first I became slightly frustrated, how did I get in this spot again? We are fully alive in Christ, with the ability to live an abundant, engaged life and I am wishing for things like a house and a good job that will allow me to live comfortably? Did I even GO on the World Race? When did I become the center of attention again? It’s as soon as I take my eyes off Jesus, my vision blurs and I get wrapped up with things of this world.
Shortly after, I asked myself this question. What am I living for? Lately, these days my first priority has been finding a job to be back in the swing of things, have a better cushion to sit on, and have a suitable answer to the question so often darting my way, “so what are you doing next?” Honestly, I have no idea and responding with that answer should get just as much of a positive response as if I did know what was next. It’s a reminder of my need of dependency on Jesus and with that said, when the timing is right He will reveal to me what it is I am going to be doing in the days ahead. As for now, I am patiently living in the present right where He has me and that is enough. I am focusing on building up treasures in heaven and focusing less on things in and on this earth.
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2
Are you keeping your eyes more on Jesus or things of this world?
