The World Race chapter of my life is about to end. It’s about time to start a new one. What that chapter is called or what it’s even about, I have no idea. Does that worry me? Eh.
I’ve always had a plan. Graduate high school, go to college, get a job, have a family, etc. Well, the first two happened as planned. Then Christ came in the picture. Ouch, it hurts to even type that, “Christ came in the picture.” It sounds like an inconvenience. That’s how the planning, worldly side of me feels about it. Jesus got in the way of the plan.
Of course, I don’t actually feel that way. Christ got rid of the plan that was leading towards a dishonest, unrighteous path that was centered on personal gain and false hopes. Christ is now leading me on a righteous, life-filled path centered entirely on him and the hope that comes through faith in him.
Even with this new understanding, my brain can’t help but go back to old tricks. It wants a plan. It craves for direction. It can’t take not knowing what’s next. This causes dissonance inside me. No lie, I planned out my life until about age 30 the other day. I fell into the temptation of self-reliance. I tried to justify my plan by saying that it was centered on ministry. That might be true, but is God actually in it? Did I even consult him?
“We can make our own plans, but the Lord gives the right answer.” Proverbs 16:1
My brain hates that verse.
“We can make our own plans, but the Lord determines the steps.” Proverbs 16:9
That one too.
“You can make many plans, but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.” Proverbs 19:21
Definitely that one.
“The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?” Proverbs 20:24
Dang! My brain practically shuts down and quits after reading that one.
I'm not saying that having a plan is bad. I think it's good to write down what your heart desires. But with the Lord determining the steps, seek from him about each and every aspect of your desires. God will give you the right answer. Notice I didn't say the answer you want, but the right answer. He knows what's up. Let Him be in control.
Much love.
