When I was young I'd wish that something crazy would happen to me, so that I could respond like a hero and people would think I was awesome. I aspired to be great someday. I realized I was no genius or a child prodigy early on but maybe I could be awesome by having a faith that moved mountains, or the courage and perseverance of Martin Luther King Jr. or the heart of Mother Theresa.
Trying to be awesome, is really hard. It's not that easy to figure out. Because really who even truly knows? What measuring stick would you use exactly?
I realized that somewhere along the way, that I am fairly ordinary. That I have my uniqueness, and individual story but there is not really anything that makes me that much better or worse than anyone else out there. As I started to come to terms with that reality, I saw that there was a lot of freedom in that and that only God is awesome.
I didn't have to prove myself to anyone anymore, least of all myself who was the biggest critic of all. I started to believe that God thought I a great kid, not because I was particularly faithful, or loving or capable, but simply because that's how parents are about their kids. Your kid is always the cutest one in your eyes. You always make a big deal out of every milestone, even though it's pretty much something every kid is going to do.
I'm finding that I really enjoy being an unremarkable human being who may never have any notable accomplishments and letting God be the spectacular one, the one who gets credit for anything cool that's going on anywhere in the world. In the end I might just be a garden-variety human contributing a small part to the great and wonderful things God wants to do in this world but my life is awesome, because I get to do it with God.
Ps. Training Camp is coming up on May 18th!
