I sit here and I look around at total chaos in my life. Nothing is familiar, nothing is normal, nothing is how it has been for 29 years. The reality has set in that Hannah and I are actually giving up the life we have made. Ultimately, my entire life has been turned upside down and chaos has replaced routine. I have a million things to do before we leave and yet all I can do is look at my life and smile.
My whole life I have tried to create order. I have always had a plan. Up to this point, the plan was right on track. School…check, law school…check, married…check, house…check, successful practice…check. However, I sit here on the edge of a new chapter in my life and my plans are falling apart. However, the funny thing is that I am happier than I have been in a long time. I feel from the soles of my feet to the top of my head that I am exactly where God wants me to be. I am beginning to understand that God is tearing down all the things that have unknowingly become idols in my life. These are things like comfort, security and routine. It is wild, but the chaos that is unfolding around me can only be described as…beautiful. Call me crazy, but I know that the mess, the struggle and the confusion will lead to revelation. Deep inside my soul God is telling me in a still small voice that I was made for such a time as this. I actually feel more confidence in the chaos than I ever have in the calm.
On September 4th, Hannah and I fly to Chicago to get our last bit of training before we leave the states. I have no idea what will unfold during the coming year, but I do know that God will be present. I am excited for what this year holds and I hope you continue to follow our blog to see what God has in store.
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