It’s been just over a month since my last entry and I can tell you that it hasn’t been easy for me. Between traveling for work, trying to fundraise, and dealing with all my thoughts and doubts. There were a couple times where I was questioning everything that I was doing; wondering if I had made the right decision to give up my life for a year to pursue what I felt God had called me to do. My thoughts were very doubtful and I doubted my very thoughts. It was tiring and at one point all I wanted to do was give up, forget that I even thought of doing this, and go back to my life that I had before. It was if I had no faith in Gods provisions, but in less than 2 days, I looked at my fundraising support and my hope grew. God was providing and all he wanted was for me to keep climbing in my faith.
I did not really think about faith this way until the other day. Ive always figured that if you had a little faith then that is all you needed, but I am starting to realize that you can grow in your faith far more than most people imagined.
I was hiking up to the top of Wetterhorn Peak this 4th of July, it was very quite and peaceful. I had time to reflect on the beauty that surrounded me and focus on the summit off in the distance. As I was making my way up the trail, I realized that climbing mountains represented my faith. The beginning starts off a little rough as you get acclimated to what you are after, and then it feels as if it gets easier as you push forward. Actually, it tends to get harder; as the airs getting thinner, you’re breathing harder, and the terrain is getting steeper Step after step you see that peak getting closer and closer, but it never gets easier. Eventually, however, the higher, farther, and longer you go, your body adapts and it feels easier, as it gets harder. Suffering most of the way up to the top, but once you reach the top the reward and the views are so worth it. As you look down on that trail, that got you to the top, the trail suddenly doesn’t look as hard as it did while you where on it.
That’s what I realized about my faith. For me, growing faith is like climbing a mountain. You start off with a little or a a certain point, but if you continue to press forward through the hard moments, the doubts, the fears, and the uncertainty. It’ll become easier to have stronger faith, as situations you face become harder. All you have to do is keep your eyes on God and keep moving forward. Keep pushing through those difficult moments, because once you reach where God is leading you; you will look back at those tough times and laugh.
The more you progress up that mountain that God is calling you up, the stronger your faith will become, the easier it’ll be to follow, and the outcome will be so so worth it.
