We all woke up this morning in so we could leave by 7 so we could get to the venue for Passion day 2 by 8. We stopped at burger king and sarbucks for breakfast on the way but no one wanted anything from burger king and starbucks had just opened and wasn´t ready for costumers. While some insisted on getting their cup of coffee with trendy logo(Kipp´s words not mine) others were impatiently waiting. It was very obvious that there was a dark cloud over our group this morning, myself included. Eventually we recognized this and after a quick prayer asking God to be with our attitudes and emotions that day my mood lifted, but not my spirits. It was hard to explain but physically I was fine but spiritually I felt drained.
This morning I was luckily able to complete my first task in time to make it to the morning session. I was looking forward to worshipping since last nights session had included some of the best worship I had ever been apart of. But also because my boy Francis Chan was speaking. When the worship began I started to sing to God but it wasn´t coming from the heart. It was strange but where last night the love and admiration flowed so freely, this morning I felt I had a heart of stone. I eventually got frustrated and sat there and prayed that God would prepare my heart for worship. Well eventually Francis came up and threw down an awesome lesson, like usual, but the weight of my problem weighed so heavy on me that I was only half listening. So after that session we had a lunch break before the next session.
I made it to the next session as the music started, out of pure frustration I just sat there and listened to it. But then I began to noice something. I started to feel something. I noticed that as I sat there and let the words consume me I began to feel more spiritually refreshed. It´s very hard to explain but as I sat there and stopped trying to force my heart to worship, when it obviously was not in a condition to do so, and allowed the truth of the words being sung to penetrate my soul. God spoke to me. I was reminded that I hadn´t taken some quiet alone time with God except for one day on this trip. Why is it that we gt so caught up in doing God´s work that we forget to include God in o it? The condition of my heart was a direct result of not going to God daily for my quality time with Him, and with that comes the revitalization I need.
After this epiphany the session ended and during the break I went back stage and got to meet Francis! It wasn´t a creepy stalkerish thing, I just wanted an oppurtunity to meet him, shake his hand and thank him for all the inspiration God and given me using him as a conduit. But after the final session we came back to the hotel where you find me now.
We´ll be coming home tomorrow. It´s strange I´m not homesick at all, if I could stay longer I would, but I´m craving some good old americanized mexican food.
