Few weeks before debrief my teammates drove me crazy. The cool friends title has worn off, little small things have gotten on my nerves. For debrief we were at a camp called La Montana Christian Camps. It was in the middle of the mountains far away from any civilization and the closest store was forty-five minutes away. The camp was pretty cool, but not as awesome as Pine Cove (Sorry not sorry, Pine Cove Forever).
I thought it would be a perfect time to get some space from them. I put up walls and shut them out, avoided them as much as possible. It was okay at first, I spent a whole lot of time with the Lord. That space I created for myself, God taught me that I was speaking lies over myself. The lies were that I was the plus person on my squad, team. That one person, If I left the race does it really matter? Would I change anything? Did I impact them in those four months? Those lies really put me down! God, I Know you said I am Loved, seen, and favorited but it’s kind of hard to believe it. This session God is trying to teach me how to hear the things he already speaks over me, He is teaching me to hear it.
The last day we had a little squad dodge ball tournament and a mud run which was super fun. Also get to witness Hannah Butkus baptism! That night for our session was about Few World Race Covenant. It started with John 8, the accusers were asking Jesus, according to the law of Moses, says to stone the adultery women. Jesus replied let anyone who ever sinned throw the first stone. We were told to go outside and find a stone, and ask ourselves who are you going to throw those stone? That was exactly what I needed to hear. I had five stones, each of them against my teammates. Who am I to have any right to throw stone against them? There’re many times on the race I had done something I shouldn’t have said or did. After that we laid our stones back outside. I apologized later that day to my teammates. That was a really nice reset for me. Now I can go through the next five months with our stone in my hands. If I do, I will surely remember that day and drop my stone.
For the next two months of Costa Rica, we will be doing manual labor at Project Abraham. We will be teaching some devotion in Spanish, so prayer all around. We’ll be starting next Tuesday, don’t really know what it will be like, But I’m Ready!
Tikki
