Exodus 14:14 -“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
Right after training camp I was changed and it took a couple of days to process through everything God showed. During that time I was looking for a seasonal job and I moved in with a dear friend of mine. Life was changing so fast. I had no time to process and slow down and realize everything that is happening in my life.
My friend went out of town for the weekend right after I moved in, which meant I had the place to myself with nothing to do. It was a Friday night and I didn’t want to be alone. I tried to hit up everyone I knew but they had plans or never answered that night. I tried turning on a movie but the Lord told me, “No, spend time with me.” I said, “okay”. So I turned on worship music and I was feeling all alone. I couldn’t hold still and couldn’t focus on God. I was restless. The Lord told me, “Just be still in my presence and I will do everything else.” He asked me, “Am I enough for you?” I wanted to say yes but at that moment I couldn’t answer him. Before I would have said YES over and over again. I eventually had to start praying because I was starting to believe the lies of the enemy which was; I am not loved, no one wants to hang out with me, I’m all alone, no one sees me, I’m wasting my time just sitting here, I can’t do enough, I’m never gonna get enough money to go on the World Race, etc. I started to pray and all of a sudden the Lord told me, “Be still and I will fight for you and on your behalf.” Exodus 14:14. What was that supposed to mean? He continued, ” I’m working things out that you don’t see, trust me. I love you and I’m here for you. You are not alone and you don’t need to do this by yourself, let me help you and fight on your behalf for things that I want to give you. Trust me, just sit in my presence and I will do the rest.” I said, “okay Lord, I will trust you.”
Then on Saturday the same thing happened again where I was bored and no one could hang out and the Lord wanted me to spend time with him. I ended up turning on the TV and the second movie of the Narnia series was on. I really related to Lucy. There were a couple scenes that the Lord just spoke to me from. There was this scene where Prince Caspian and Peter were disagreeing in the underground tomb where they were having a meeting about what to do next. Prince Caspian wanted to wait for the enemy to come to their turf and defeat the enemy that way. Peter wanted to attack them at the castle and catch them off guard. Then Lucy spoke up while she was sitting on the rock that Aslan rose from the dead from. She said, “You guys are thinking there are only two options but there is a third. We can wait for Aslan, have you guys lost all hope?” Then someone speaks up and says, “He has been gone long enough, we need to take action now.” Then they end up going to the castle in the middle of the night and they end up loosing a lot of men and have to pull back. The Lord told me, “see, that is what happens when you do things on your own, things don’t turn out the way you want and it becomes a disaster.” That spoke to me and I realized I need to wait on the Lord and I don’t need to take things into my own hands because it won’t work the way its supposed to and it will end up hurting more than helping.
In the movie, they decide to send Lucy into the forest to find Aslan. She ends up finding him. When she see’s him, she runs and gives him a big hug and they both fall on the ground laughing and hugging. They end up sitting there just talking. She told him that the others didn’t believe. Aslan said, “Why would that stop you from coming to me.” That part hit me hard. Lucy asked, ” why didn’t you show yourself, why couldn’t you have come roaring in and saving us like you did last time?” Aslan said, ” Things never happen the same way twice, dear one.” Lucy asked, “Will you help now?” Aslan said, “Of course, as will you.” Lucy said, “oh, I wish I was braver.” Aslan said, “If you were any braver, you would be a lioness.” Then Aslan stood up and roared and awoke the trees to help fight the battle. The Lord stopped me at this point and told me the same thing. It was like we were having that same conversation. God spoke those same things over me. It was powerful because I feel like I have asked him the same questions and he responded the same way. He was very gentle and loving with me, speaking truth to me.
In the movie, the army drove the Narnians to the river where they were gonna kill them. But on the other side of the river and bridge, out of the forest came Lucy. Lucy was walking confidently by herself onto the edge of the bridge. Then she took out a little knife. Then Aslan comes walking up beside Lucy. The army decides to charge at Lucy and Alsan. The army starts running across the bridge and river. Then Alsan roars and the water rushes and drowns all the enemy’s army. Then when the water calms, Lucy puts her little knife away. The Lord stopped me again and told me that is all I need to do. He wants me to be like Lucy. All I need to do is stand there confidently in the Lord and he will fight for me. Exodus 14:14
The next couple of days the Lord had me process that a little bit more and he revealed that what he meant about fight for me was, He was talking about the enemy’s of the spirit (demons and Satan). He also referred to my fears and the lies that were spoken to me and my doubts. He is fighting for me and on my behalf against anything that comes against me physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually because they are all normally related.
He told me I need to stop doing things my way and on my own. Ever since God spoke to me, he has been confirming that to me over and over again. It’s kinda funny because I have been looking into doing some fundraisers but the doors keep on being shut. The Lord has told me, “NO, don’t do things your way, wait on me and I will show you, I will open up the doors for you. Don’t look and compare how others are fundraising because the way you will fundraiser is going to be different.” I said, Okay, I will trust you, I’ll wait for you.”
Will you trust the Lord and wait on him like Lucy? Will you stand confidently while God fights on your behalf right beside you?
