Everywhere I go I can do ministry. I can be anywhere in the world and be an ambassador of Christ. And all of it is just as important. Not one country is more important than another. Not one group of people is more important than another. Every single person on earth needs to know God’s love. I can be making an impact just as much as people who have never been on a missions trip. Because I am on a year long missions trip doesn’t mean I’m better or more important. The World Race is amazing. It’s a gift from God that he has let me go and get to serve in 12 countries and meet so many people. I am so blessed by what he has shown me and taught me and let me experience. This is not the most important year or exciting year of my life. It’s just another year. And I get to choose how I spend it. I can be learning and serving, or happy and joyful, or sad and depressed, etc. I can be that way back in the states or in different countries. Just because I am on a missions trip doesn’t mean life or things in life won’t happen at any time. Which at one point I thought that. It all depends on what I do with what I am delt in life and in every situation. Blame and find ways to cope or go to the source and ask God for help. This year I have chosen sometimes to blame and there are many times where I go to the Lord. Sometimes I don’t like what I’m told by the Lord. I have to choose to obey God or give into my flesh. I wish I could say I always obey God but sometimes I don’t. I choose my own way and then eventually realize I chose wrong and then obey God. God is always faithful when I come to him not matter how long or short it takes. He is consistent always.
I have learned how to be a servant and serve. I use to want to serve because I was supposed to and that’s what everyone else did. I felt like I was expected to serve and felt like I needed to or people would look down on me. I also wanted to serve for people to notice and thank me, basically for recognization. Or for people to serve me back after I have served them. I had a lot of messed up thoughts about serving. I thought all of that up to about a month ago. The Lord started showing me my selfish thoughts and how they were Influenced by sin and my flesh. I really did want to help people and love people and I did to an extent. But I realized I wouldn’t to be able to purely and fully do it with these thoughts. God just put this desire in me to want to serve people for no recognization. I started to realize that I am recognized by the one who really matters and I don’t need anyone else’s recognization. I realized that God gives us all responsibilities that need to be done by everyone which in turn serves everyone. Like cleaning and cooking, etc. God showed me that when I serve I shouldn’t expect them to repay me. I shouldn’t expect them to notice because God notices and that should be enough for me. God’s applause is enough for me. His smile and his thank you is enough for me. He is enough for me. Truly he is enough. And if someone notices and says thank you or serves me back then that is a bonus and a blessing. So now I truly want to serve to show love to people and love to God.
I have realized that what I am created for relational interaction. I am able to help deal with the internal issues of people’s lives. God brings people for me to listen to and encourage and to point to him. When that happens, my soul and spirit meets with theirs and it’s special. I feel electricity from God that runs through me and out of me. This is why God has called me to inner healing/sozo ministry. Which is counciling to an extent but it gets to the root of core issues and trauma and brings God into it to heal and restore them.
In Botswana I am living with my team plus another team. We have 15 people living in one house. It’s a lot and can be overwhelming but fun at times. We have all been doing different ministries. I have served at the daycare with little cuties ages 3 to 6. And I have also done Hospital ministry which is where we go and pray over the patients in the hospital. I think that is my favorite ministry this month because I love to pray and just encourage them.
Fundraising update: I need $1,470 until I am fully funded. If you feel led to give, please do. Thank you and God bless.
