Personal space. We all have this; both physically and emotionally. We have this invisible box around us and we only let people get too close. Some people do understand the concept of personal space and invade it quite regularly. For instance, you’re on an airplane and the person next to you is not only taking up his seat, but half of yours. Then he takes it a step further and drops his head over basically on your shoulder. Then comes the snoring…not like I’m speaking from experience or anything. J Distance. We all want to keep a healthy distance from others. Don’t get too close, don’t reveal too much and don’t be too vulnerable. This is how we live our day to day. There isn’t anything wrong with this, except that we were purchased by a Man who not only wants to invade our personal space but wants to have a love affair with us that is deeper than the most passionate relations any human has ever experienced. He doesn’t want a casual friendship, He was head-over-heels, can’t eat, can’t sleep, shoot for the stars kind of love; the kind of love most of us girls dream of finding our entire lives. Why is it that we long to find our knight in shining armor, but we feel uncomfortable when Jesus makes a move for our hearts? Anyone who knows me understands that I am a hopeless romantic. My sister reminds me how cheesy and sappy I am. But I cannot help it; something inside me longs to be pursuit and erratically loved by another.
As my heart searches for this love, I pass over it again and again wondering where I will find it. I don’t see that I have already been pursued with the highest level of love and passion the world has ever known. There is a lover who longs to be with me every second of every day. He knows everything about me and still loves me like crazy. He sees me fail and watches me miss the mark and it only makes Him want me more. He doesn’t care how much I weigh or if my make up is on. He accepts and affirms me in every way. Why is it that I over look Him when this is something my heart so desires? Honestly, when I look deep in my heart, it is uncomfortable to be pursued in such a manner. I often thought it was the one thing I wanted, yet I push it away thinking I will find something better. Tell me, what love in the world could be better than a Man loving me so much He lays down His very life; especially when I didn’t even love Him back. Pursuit. Never has there been a greater chase for my heart. Why does it make me uncomfortable? Why am I so prone to push Him away or not trust it validity? Jesus loves me. He longs to be with me. And better yet, He longs for me to pursue Him in return. He desires to be the first thing on my mind when I rise and my final thoughts before I close my eyes in sleep, to be in my dreams and to be my truest Love. What else could I possibly be looking for? It’s time to stop looking for an unrealistic fairy tale and begin to start living the ultimate love affair with the One who gave Himself for me. It’s time for me to begin to pursue this precious Man who gave up His very life to have this relationship with me. I am committing to pursue Jesus this year more passionately than I have ever before, to become completely vulnerable and open with Him. I will trust Him with the things I hold the most dear and my deepest desires. With everything that I have, I am going after this Savior and what I want most is to fall so madly, deeply and passionately in love with Him. The greatest gift, the Cross –was not only worth my life but also my pure devotion and my intimate affection.
