The lord put me in time out today. Literally locked me in the mens bathroom, and made me be still and listen. When I thought about what to write this week, I thought I was going to begin to talk about the women here in costa rica and the extreme need they have for jobs. I’m still going to write about that soon, but today God spoke to me, and told me to tell you about what He is doing in my heart. I have always struggled with just sitting still and hearing the important things. I mean I am from the United States, all we do at home is GO GO GO.
I got to Costa Rica eager to serve so I jumped right in, yesterday I realized I literally put all the work onto myself and I don’t ever ask for help, so when things go wrong I kind loose it. (quick apologies to Hallie and Mack, I love y’all)
This morning on the bus Hallie brought to my attention that sometimes I put unrealistic expectations on myself, and thats true, I just forgot just how true it was. I want everything to be perfect and happy for the ladies I am serving so much so that I make it harder for myself. This is not how The Lord has called us to serve our brothers and sisters. In my quiet time yesterday I read Ecclesiastes 3:12, “I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live.” I prayed about it last night, and I guess I didn’t quite understand it..
This morning we did our morning stretches with the ladies then we sat and talked about Nicaragua for a bit, after we took a bathroom break. I went to let the ladies know we were starting class and then I took my own bathroom break. Once I was done no one was in the bathroom, I couldn’t open the door and no one could hear me as I screamed Help me in Spanish. After the first 20 minutes I gave up knocking and yelling and just said, “ok, God I’m just sitting here what do you have to say?” Instantly I got chills and I knew he was saying, “Just sit with me and SHUT UP”
My love language is quality time, but how do I honestly know what quality times when I don’t spend it with the one who created love, languages and time? So now I want to encourage you to sit and listen to The Lord I mean don’t lock yourself in a sketchy bathroom or anything like that, but just sit in your favorite chair, go to your favorite place, listen to you favorite or maybe lock yourself in your nice air conditioned throne room. Just be quiet and hear what he has for you.
I still love Costa Rica and what God is doing here. Thank you for all the prayers. Please continue to pray over my team as we get to love on our brothers and sisters from Nicaragua!!
