Wow hey y’all!! yes, I am alive well and happy!! As you know i have been i have been asking the Lord for visions and dreams for awhile now, and He has continued to provide like always. In Costa Rica i dreamt with the Lord. Now in South Africa i day dream with the Lord. The visions He has given me have been truly the sweetest and beautiful so beautiful in fact I think He is calling me to share them with you my sweet brothers and sisters. Here is a little glimpse into some of the visions that the Lord has given me:
Okay, so you know in those cheesy cartoons when the characters come to a crossroad and there is always the old wooden sign pointing a bunch of different ways. Well in this vision I came to one of those signs and it began to spin slow at first then rapidly. Until it just stopped, and there was no arrow anymore and no writing. In that moment a peace came over as the Father so plainly put, “You don’t need to know where to go right now. I have this under control and I will provide the way.” Fear: Going home and being stuck in New Braunfels and marring the first boy who asks. I actually told my team leader this and she just laughed. Right now I have no plans for myself when I get home and I am learning thats ok! God will show where to go and give me something to do. What a scary thought especially going back to The United States where you have to have planned your whole life out by the time you’re 7 years old.
Recently God has decided that it was time for me to face fears that make sense in my flesh, but not necessarily in my spirit. Fears from past hurts or unrealistic thoughts formed from years of anxiety. I began to isolate myself from God and my team because i thought if i didn’t talk to God the thoughts of my fears would be gone (they only got worse) and my team because i didn’t want to burden them with my own flesh made mess also because of my fears is that one day i’ll just be too messy for the people that i love and they’ll eventually push me always. Once I spoke the fear out loud the devil and my mind had lost hold of if and i was set free.
picture this:
A tangerine sunset at the lowest part of the sky with a deep blue sky, in the sunset a silhouette of a girl down on her knees praying all of a sudden ribbons start to fly on either side of her forming mountains until she is in the midst of a valley. She begins to look up at the mountains and hangs her head then three more ribbons fly and become a cross that forms a bridge for her to walk up and get her on top of the mountain. Heres the deal, God wants to us to tell Him whats going on!! Yes, he already knows but speaking out to Him I power, you mind and satan have no hold on your fears if you deliberately give it to the Father. That is something I have always struggled with, its hard to bring things to the surface when they have been covered up for years, and when you first get them out in the open it stings. However my God moves those mountains and heals those wounds in His time. Fear, the pain of the past and its hurts. This also ties into what I said earlier when I said
As some of you know I love to think I have everything under control and that I don’t need anyones help. Lol I am admitting to myself and to you right now this is not true. (First step admitting) I knew Papa wanted to walk me through these fears, but anytime He would try to bring this to my attention I would shut my bible or distract myself with people, movies, snacks you name it. As I finally admitted to my team that I was scared they wouldn’t love me as their sister if I opened up my can crazy the Father came to me in another vision:
Imagine a christmas light tunnel, but eerie and purple. In front of the tunnel a silhouette of me and the Father holding hands, He looks down at me, and says, “Were gonna walk through this together.” And me being the flesh I am says, “but I don’t want to” and Papa says, “You aren’t, we are and it doesn’t have to be right now but I am gonna be right here the whole time.” You see our God is a gentleman He never forces us into things alone or leaves us alone in the storm. He is patient and gentle. After this vision I looked around me and saw my whole team and how much they love me and I had peace because I know first I have a God of peace within me and a team of Sisters around me.
Thats all I have for now! We are living if Jefferys Bay, South Africa some of the best surf waves in the whole world!! Its beautiful and the Lord is so present here. I don’t have a ministry yet, but the Lord has been ministering to my heart and loving me so well. Yes Mom and Dad I will try to blog more!! Thank each and everyone of you for your love and support.
Please email or text me with ways I can be praying for you.
