Something that the lord has been teaching me lately is how to be bold in what He has called and gifted me in.
As all of you who know me, know that I am terrified of speaking(or anything else for that matter) in front of people. I’m not exaggerating here either! In times past to present, when someone asks me to speak or perform anything in front of people, my insides become like water and everything inside of me wants to leave my body.
So much to my disliking, the Lord laid it on my heart to start a class. Yep you heard me right, the Lord wanted me to share my knowledge with others.
This was something that the Lord had laid on my heart all the way back in Swaziland, Africa. However, I had tried to ignore it, But regardless of my best efforts, the Lord didn’t let me run away(for long anyway) from what He wanted me to start.
No matter how many time I tried to push down the burden of sharing my knowledge, it somehow resurfaced. It started when people one by one approached me and would ask me to share my knowledge on studying the bible, and after 5 or so people asked me( and other things) I decided to start a class.
Now even though I still feel the need to throw up every time I speak in front of people, the Lord has given me peace as I share with them what I have learned. This new area that the Lord has brought me into if one that I am so excited about, even though I am quite nervous.
Even though I have daily doubt whether I want to continue teaching( I do not want to fail, partly because of pride, but also not wanting to be giving people information that is not fruitful), I can tell you that I have great peace knowing I am doing what the Lord has equipped and called me to do.
This has/is humbling me, because I won’t have all the answers, but the Lord does and so I want to continue to point others to Him, not myself.
I’m learning that boldness has a lot of stepping out in faith, because you know the Holy Spirit is calling you to, and being okay with not doing things perfectly, but giving it your best for the Lord. For My Lord is Sovereign and Mighty, and even though I mess things up, the Lord will redeem all mistakes, for I am not bigger than my Creator. He promises to;
“Work all things together for good of those who love Him and are called according to His purposes.” Romans 8:29
I hope this encourages you all to step out and be bold for the lord. For there are people who don’t know of Gods plan of salvation, and there are people who are needing a fellow brother/sister in Christ to disciple them and encourage them in the lord! (I Corinthians 12)
Love you all! Blessings form India
