This is the beginning of month 7 and we are now in Thailand!! I love it here:) This month is also manistry( which means the girls and guys split for a month and the guys do manual labor and other things, while the girls go out to the clubs at night and minister to girls/women who are in prostition and the gay and lesbian community.) At the beginning of the race I was not even open to the possibility of being separated from my husband for a month but the Lord slowly began working on my heart. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt God is going to use this month to pentrate both of our hearts and take us deeper with him. I had a vision on Sunday. There was an arrow that was flying at tom, so I steped in the way wanting to block it from hitting him. Some kind of a way I was able to discern that the arrow was filled with good things from the father. The Lord then told me to step aside and as I did the arrow penetrated Tom’s heart. I will no longer step in front of what God has for Tom. Tom doesn’t need me to hear from the Lord. The Lord wants to speak to him directly:) When I had this vision a peace came over me once again and I knew this month he would flourish in the Lord. This month for me is all about dependancy on the Lord. I have for so long depended on everyone else except him. It is my deepest desire to grow in intamacy with my father. I know he longs to take me to that level but it is a choice. It’s always a choice. Last night I was laying in bed and I began to get sad, thinking how much I missed Tom but the Lord spoke and said will you choose how you are feeling over me? The answer is no, I will not choose laying in pain over persuing a deeper relationship with my father. So God I choose you!!!!! Immediately when I began declaring that the atmosphere changed. I was no longer filled with saddness, but filled with Love that the Lord always persues me, he always calls me out from where I am so that I can be with him, and now and for always I choose him! He is all I need:) I really starting to understand! It’s incrediable:)
Also, we have 1 week to get $4,446 into our support account. I know that if the Lord wants us to finish the race he will provide. I trust him! But if he does not provide financially and we have to go home, I am at peace with that also. He always knows best, I trust him with everything! If you would like to donate to us staying on the race we would really appreciate it. You can click on the support me tab on our blog: www.thomasandcaseykowatch.theworldrace.org Thank you and God bless!!
