So it has
been a very EXCITING past week..
1) I’ve
started to look at/buy some gear for the trip, not much of a shopper but REI
puts a smile on my face, hit me up with what you guys are looking at, I’m thinking Osprey Aether 85 pack, 30 degree bag (undecided), Sierra Design 2 person tent and a Big Bertha 2.5 in. sleeping pad, all light weight and good for carrying!
2) I saw a
cardinal and started looking for some pigs, signs of addiction to certain
games… (I’ma say denial)
3) Got to
go spelunking (for those of you who don’t know this = cave diving 300 feet plus
underground in Tennessee and 11 inch crawl spaces, even saw a bat which for
those of you who don’t know me big deal… Give me a mask, cape, supercomputer and
some sweet gadgets and a dream is going to come true! If you don’t get
that, since I was 3 I’ve been telling my parents I would be Batman some day…
No lie, some dreams don’t fade, 20 years later and I’m still counting on it!
=]) If not, I’m having a son and naming him Bruce Wayne Wensil, good ring
right?
Finally but foremost,
4) Got some serious reflection and
time with God..
Being out
of college, my biggest struggle has been learning to be quiet and
reflect. In college I was always around somebody, if nobody was home I
headed elsewhere! I am a very social person and strive off of
relationships with people and took very little time to listen or talk to God… Honestly being alone is something that
scares the junk out of me… But I have learned that time alone with God is
something we need, something we should strive for and not be able to live a day
without! To earnestly seek God
puts you in such an overwhelming place that you begin to crave this time
throughout your day.
Here is the
play by play, I was reading John and came across this passage John 6:60-71..
Brace yourself cause this is an intense call on your faith, dreams and
aspirations! Jesus has just given
this crazy message offering Himself as the bread of life and drink of eternity! Whoa… Right? Crazy if we really think about it, but we know now that the
only way is through Him.. big AMEN!
But what got me in some serious reflection is the fact that some of these
disciples just up and leave Jesus after this teaching. How would I have reacted? What would I have said? Would I stand there dumbfounded or take
His word for what it was?
All these
questions started running through my head, all my life I have been raised to
seek after Jesus and have found that Jesus is my Lord and Savior! But what I wonder most is how true is my picture of Jesus equal to a Biblical Jesus and not a personal picture of Jesus that I have
made along the way.. You know the Mr.
Rodgers buddy, buddy Jesus vs. Chuck Norris Jesus vs. Hippie Jesus.
Jesus asks
his twelve in this passage “You do not want to leave too, do you?” and Simon
Peter replies “Lord, to whom shall we go?
You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God.”
So after
some serious prayer, this is my quest and dream from here on out until the ends of the earth.. I don’t want to abandon
Jesus, I want to dive into His words and make these words burst out my seams.. I think Jeremiah did some serious prophesying when he
said in Jeremiah 20:9, “But if I say, “I will not mention Him or speak any more
in His name, his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my
bones. I am weary of holding it
in; indeed, I cannot”. Scary
thought, but this is what I long for..
I want to ditch my American Jesus for the REAL Jesus! My soul longs for this! I pray this for our team, but not
something that I want to wait until October to experience, because it’s real and it’s
RIGHT NOW!
