You may have noticed I made a slight name change on Facebook. It has changed from “Thomas” to “Tomas.” That is because my given name is “Tomas.” It is a small change that represents a larger change in my heart.
Lately God has been speaking to me about Sonship a lot. I have realized I have actually denied my Sonship in many ways. One of those ways is by not recognizing the name my heavenly Father ( through my earthly one) gave me. My legal name is Tomas Ruhland. However I have always insisted whenever possible that it’d be spelled with an “h” (Thomas). This may seem small but it actually reflects a rebellious heart posture I previously had towards my Father.
“Tomas” is the name given to me. But I have always thought it was a mistake. By telling others that my name was “Thomas,” I was telling God: “The name you gave me is wrong. It is ‘Thomas,’ not ‘Tomas’.”
To be honest, I had also created an identity for this person that was impossible to measure up to. This false identity aka “Thomas” is the always cool, smart, athletic, wise, kind, generous, flawless, respectful and perfectly pure Christian guy. Thus whenever I would fall short of these characteristics, I felt as though I had failed God.
The Father showed me today that “Thomas” is not His son. “Tomas” however is His creation and His Son. I had set up unrealistic standards for “Thomas,” but God’s only hope for “Tomas” is that he would receive the inheritance of Sonship that Jesus died for. When God named someone in the Bible, breathtaking events followed. Because when these imperfect men and women put on the Identity the Father gave them, they accomplished things only a child of God could do. Their name change reflected their willing heart to step into their God given Identity.
This is the reason for the change on Facebook. Even though it may seem insignificant, it is not. It not only represents my change of heart but also my acceptance of the identity of Sonship that has been offered to me: “TOMAS RUHLAND.” In fact, every time God has talked to me, He has always addressed “Tomas”. Whenever His voice was loud and clear, so was the spelling. I have always been highly aware and annoyed by it… until Today.
My false identity caused a mountain of problems, as I would try to apply the truths of God to a person that didn’t really exsist. It didn’t work because “Thomas” was not God’s creation. It was my own!
I am sorry if you have only gotten to know “Thomas” up to this point. The mask is coming off. I must warn you behind it is an imperfect man. But I can tell you this; that man walks in Sonship.
P.S. As much as I would like to, I am unable to change my name in my blog address, as it would pose several issues.
