Today a teammate of mine asked me, “What have you seen God do this month”? I was completely taken back and honestly didnt know how to answer, but why couldnt I give her a clear answer to what God had done. He had done lots of things, why couldnt I think of one. To be honest it really bothered me. Tonight our squad got together and had a time of worship, I felt defeated, trampled and felt I had nothing to give, especially to my savior, my father and my friend. This month has been by far the hardest on the race, if not the hardest time in my life. I was allowing that to hold me down, to keep me captive, but why? I know my God is victorious. During worship I was broken down and offered my brokeness up to him once more and took my focus off of myself and turned it to him. I began to ask him, God what did you do this month? Then it came to me. For so long I have cried, prayed, sang that God would break my heart for what breaks his, and he did it. My heart has been broken this month by what I have seen. Starving children on the side of the road begging for food, people dying of AIDS, and my new friend Sarah and her 2 year old son who have no home. To feel what breaks God’s heart is so hard, because once we can even grasp a portion of it we will never be the same. We cant go on living life as usual. So this month my heart has been broken and I really wasn’t sure how to deal with it all. My eyes and my heart have seen the pain in this world, real pain. I feel hopeless; what can I do? The Lord is teaching me a hard lesson, what I can do is PRAY! As simple as that sounds it’s truely all that matters because I have a creator who cares for them so much more than I ever could. If it breaks my heart to see their pain, how much more does it break his? He is the only one who can fill them with all that they need. SO GOD CONTINUE TO BREAK MY HEART FOR WHAT BREAKS YOURS!!
