My Recent blog ¨prize winning roses¨ which was full of questions and external processing led to several responses and many comments…….these are the contributing factors that lead to that post.
a headcold, little sleep, being tired and run down physically
my expectations and disappointment in others regarding a specific area of ministry
an unexpected confrontation with another leader, which contained harsh words, questioning of personal faith levels, questioning of motives as to passion or control issues, a major misunderstanding on both parties
teammates question what a leaders should look like and be, if a leader has insecurities can lead properly
Things spoken in confedience to a leader used in casual conversation with the entire squad
Not knowing my role or purpose here. it´s frustrating at best
Everything comming to a head in one single day…….what fun!
Since the original blog I have spent time with my team and found the issue in question were within themselves and not in me personally….I spoke openly and laid out my trash….it was not only the right decision…..I believe it was the only decision.
I will speak with the other leader before weeks end……Waiting to calm my emotins and hear clearly what the Lord would have me say to heal hurts and continue to grow in community with all my new family.
Thank you all for your comments, love support and mostly prayers
