Yesterday I received an email that stopped me in my tracks. Training Camp details are being announced.
My mind began to race and the emotions began to flood in.
Is this really happening.
I only have 4 Months.
Am I ready for this.
What in the world was I thinking.
So as the excitement poured in fear and doubt came with it. Now here's the thing, I am not typically a worrier. I am more of a go with the flow, whatever happens does, Calvinist type of person. But for some reason this time was different.
Thankfully it was Wednesday and that means prayer service at my church James River Assembly. I went into service so full of emotion I didn't know which way was up. Through out the entire service I was barely able to keep my thoughts straight. I was consistently calling out to God looking for a peace that I once had. Now out of the entire service I could feel God speaking to me but the words that spoke directly to my heart were these, "You need to be reminded of the things God has already spoken to you and know that they are still true." God Has called me on this crazy adventure, I know He has spoken these words to me, and those words are just as true today as they were months ago.
The end of last nights prayer service was spent in a time of communion and worship. As I praised my creator I felt the fear fall away. I know that this upcoming year is going to be one of hardest years of my life, but I also know that it will be the most incredible and freeing one as well.
Now as training camp and launch get closer every day I will look forward with excitement.
God has called me.
I am anxious to go.
I am ready, God has prepared me.
Lets do this.
