understood by this world.
wrote things we needed to
with them. About midway we had
huge) When I was coming around the curve
that this hill is a representation to what it would be like to surrender
CONTROL over to him.
Those of you, who really know me, know that I like to be in
control of as much as I possibly can. I like to know when things are going to
happen, how they will happen, and what will actually happen. So I start this
hill….
I get half way up and start falling back down it. I drop my
log and my water bottle. I get dirt in my face and I finally stop by bracing my
foot against a tree. My squad mate Renee was a little ways behind me and asked
if she could get my log for me. I screamed “No, I have to carry it” and then I
started down the hill to get it. Then Benny who was helping someone else up
this hill asked if he could go get it and again I yelled “No, I must carry it
on my own” and in that moment God’s voice could not have been clearer:
“Teri, you
cannot do this alone, you must ask for help from others”
So I let Benny get my log and he helped me up the hill. I
was covered in dirt and I was out of breath.
I have recently been dealing with back/hip issue and was
extremely worried about this trek. Renee prayed for me the night before that I
would not be aware of any pain I had so that I could focus on what God wanted
to tell me.
Well guess what……I had ABSOLUTELY NO PAIN the entire way up
this hill and the second hill we had to climb. Nothing, it was all gone. God
took the pain away from me so that I could feel what He was telling me and so
that I would surrender everything to Him.
The second hill was pretty easy for me. Casey prayed for me
before I conquered the hill and she said that she was getting the image that
this hill would be totally different for me than the previous one. And it was. God
wants to use me for international missions for the rest of my life. God was
affirming that in me the entire way up the second hill.
It felt so good to surrender to God:
Control
Selfishness
Planning
Loneliness
Need for
acceptance
I will need help when I return on Sunday to stay
accountable to the things I have surrendered to Christ. It is such a wonderful
feeling surrendering these things, I hope you will surrender your mess to God
and walk in the light that He has for you.
