I have just one question for you to answer:
Have you ever been romanced by God?
Before August 28,2009 I can honestly say that I did not know
what that was like. I have been longing for this type of love relationship with
God since one of my squad mates talked about being romanced by God in Haiti in
February.
But I never knew how to do it. The world tells us that there
has to be a physical aspect of some sort in relationships and since I cannot
physically see God I thought I could not have that type of relationship with
Him.
On August 28 I was talking with my friend Renee and she
asked me if I could have a ‘lover’ type relationship with God. I told her I did
not know how to have this type of relationship. I went to worship that night
thinking about her question. During worship I felt God tell me that I had Him
on a checklist. If you know me this probably does not come as a surprise. I
love lists, especially when I can check something off of one.
I felt Him saying that I have a daily list and once I have
spent time with Him that I check it off and move on to the next item. This is
not the type of relationship God wants to have with us.
I left worship that night with a lot of questions on my mind
and a strong desire to seek this ‘lover’ relationship with God, but I had no
idea what I needed to do.
I spoke with a teammate about what God had told me. She told
me that she thought I should read Song of Solomon. I decided that this was a
good idea. I also felt like I needed to look at my concordance and look up all
the verses about love. So I have began doing this and journaling about what God
is revealing to me through His word.
He is taking me through scriptures that are teaching me what
His love looks like. By knowing what His love looks like I know what my love
needs to look like.
I have only been on this process for about a week now and I
can honestly say that God has pursued me in a way I have never before known. He
is showing me truths about the way I viewed relationships in the past and He is
showing me what He wants for me. He is holding my heart in His hands and
healing past hurts from relationships. He is loving me in a way I never knew
existed before and I am head over heals in love with Christ!
God desires for me to walk with Him every minute of every
day. Similar to what a relationship with a God given spouse should look like.
If you are not with them you are thinking about them. God desires for us to
spend time with Him when we are doing the mundane tasks of life.
This is just the beginning of an amazing relationship that
will last the rest of my life. If God decides to do nothing with the rest of my
life I am okay with that because He has shown me His love and that is all I
need!
