He stands at the altar. Not rushing or faltering. He is compelled in awe and adoration as He watches me come down the aisle. His eyes are filled with only love for His bride. They spill over with tears of inexplainable love and He never takes His eyes off me. He sees me clothed only in white and whispers, “all Beautiful you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you.” He waits patiently. Reading His vows to me over and over. “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
He is kind. He does not envy the other people watching me or boast because He has me. He is not too proud to shed tears for this moment. He is not rude when I hesitate. He does not seek the attention of this day for Himself. No anger comes upon Him when my steps become smaller or slowed; not even when I backpedal down the aisle. He keeps no record of how many times I’ve had to start again. “I will always protect you, trust in you, hope for you, and persevere in your honor” He reassures me. He sees no flaw, just His blushing bride. How I yearn to remain in this moment and to remain His blushing bride.
He committed to loving me long before I knew what love was. He prepared this ceremony and wrote His vows years in advance and with eager anticipation. He does not ask for my works or efforts to win His love. He already called me His. All He wants is my “I do”. He waits with loving arms and outstretched hands. Yearning for my heart without pressuring my choice to walk towards Him. He delights in me with every step. With pews full of people who seek His love, He sees only me. He has waited for me, His bride, for my entire life. He asks for my ‘yes’ without force. His love is fierce, pure and without condition. Simply wanting my love in return but loving me regardless. He whispers “I love you” as He waits for me. The words kiss my cheek and I blush. Closer and closer I walk to Him and the heavens sing.
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I’ve never pictured my wedding day. I wasn’t one of the little girls who pranced around in a dress or imagined her ken doll as the perfect groom. As an adult I even struggled to visualize it as I watched my friends set up their wedding day Pinterest pages. A wedding just wasn’t on my vision board and I had become content with that ideal. It wasn’t until I was witnessing a breathtaking lightning show in the Ethiopian night sky that my visions began to change. I began to see my wedding day as if it were playing in HD. I could see the decorations, my guests, and my loving groom waiting at the end of the aisle. What surprised me however was I was marrying.
God still hasn’t given me a visual of what/if/or when my earthly wedding day will be. He gave me something better. That night I got to witness how He wants his relationship with Him to be. I got to see our union on feel the love that He pours out for me each day. This vision of my wedding day to my heavenly groom is one I always want to strive for. I want to lice a life walking towards him as He stares at me lovingly.
I want to forever remain His blushing bride.
