Y’all this month has been ROUGHHH…
God has been allowing Satan to attack me with so many different things from my past
Once I overcome one thing, another thing pops up
One of those things is lice
I got lice when I was little and it was traumatizing!!
I was isolated, shunned, shamed and felt completely alone and rejected
Ever since then I have been incredibly fearful and paranoid about getting lice
Well, if you read my last post, we hiked Volcano Acatenango about 2 weeks ago
It is extremely cold at the top, therefore I needed to get a toboggan (hat)
And with GREAT skepticism I bought my hat from a thrift store like everyone else
I knew for a fact that because I was so fearful and paranoid about getting lice, Satan was going to attack me with it
I could just feel it
No one else got lice but I just knew I was going to get it
AND I DID…
And I was terrified
Immediately thoughts and fears and lies entered my mind
If I tell anyone I have lice, what happened in my past is going to happen again
I am going to be shunned, shamed, isolated and rejected
So I sat in my shame and lice for 24 hours, until I couldn’t handle the itching any longer
I finally confessed to my Squad Leader, Allison
She gracefully checked my hair and confirm my fear
After talking and processing and telling her about my fear of my past being repeated we decided that, for the safety of my friends, I needed to tell the people I am in closest contact with
So I did
After sharing with them I felt a huge weight lifted and realized that Satan was paralyzing me in my fear so that I would sit in my lice and shame alone
Right where he wanted me
So I proceeded to tell the whole squad and IT WAS AWESOME
Immediately everyone reassured me that what happened in my past was not going to be repeated and that they stilled loved me LICE AND ALL
Then the most beautiful thing happened
4 of my friends took me down stairs and offered to help me by combing, picking and cleaning my hair
For HOURS they sat with me, picking lice and eggs out of my hair, laughing and talking with me and showing me true unconditional love
God allowed me to re-experience one of my biggest fears just so that He could COMPLETELY shattter and redeem my past
Lice SUCKS but GOD is GOOD
No circumstance changes the personality and character of God
