This past week was one big lesson in learning how to let things go. Stages of life, friends, my hopes/ambitions, stresses, hurts and frustrations, the people who mean the most to me… I have to learn to let go otherwise I’ll hold on so tightly it will take away from my next year. This next year is such a blessing from Papa, and I want to get everything He wants for me out of it. He is teaching me to sit back and not feel the need to defend myself (He is my defender, and He is all I need), explain myself. He’s teaching me the value of the moment. He’s teaching me a LOT right now haha.
It’s way too easy for me to harp on things, take things on that aren’t mine to carry, and be TOO sensitive. Not everyone is going to like you, you will encounter negative attitudes and people in life, but you just have to learn to shake it off and not let it effect your joy. The most important One in the universe thinks you’re just the bees knees and that’s all that really matters.
Letting go is a huge challenge for me. In lots of areas of life. But right now, it’s learning how to let go of people– that hurts. The last thing I want to let go of is home… my family and friends. But this is a very important step towards that thing I talked about last week- sacrifice. And the reality of what is coming is starting to hit me. Truthfully, it scares me. The longest I’ve ever been away from home is something like two weeks. This is going to be a huge adjustment. I just want to make the most of the time I have left in the states (7 more weeks!). It’s so bittersweet but I’m really learning more than ever how to really, truly live in the moment. Living in the moment is a wonderful gift.
I want to live in the moment everywhere I go. With my family and friends now and on the Race in 2015 with my WR family.
I may have gone to training camp, but I’m still in preparation mode. God is really doing a lot in my heart right now. Thank you all so much for supporting me and lifting me up in prayer. It means everything to me. I can feel the love and support and it blows me away.
I’ll keep you updated on how this letting go process goes… stay tuned…
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