In the beginning of the World Race… It’s hectic and exciting and wonderful. Well it’s all good until you get a Philippine infection… So here we are about 2 days into the race and I notice my ankle hurts and I just thought oh whatever I’m fine i just need to tough it out I’m on the world race so it’s all good. Yeah not. So that was Friday we get to Saturday evening and I’m limping around, so I ask my leader Shad who’s been here before, “hey shad what do you know about infections in the philippines?” All he says is “stay away from them”. My thoughts oh thats good. So Sunday morning we went to the doctor. And sure enough it’s an infection. So we get some meds and I’m on bed rest for a week. al seriousness my foot was huge. We had just started the world race so obviously I was thinking “Uhm hello… God? What are you doing… I want to go play with the kids and talk about you? Why did you give me an infection???” So the first couple days I slept a lot and just listened to music and hung out didn’t want to think about praying or talking to God. Then Wednesday rolls around it’s not getting better so we went to the Doctor AGAIN. He told me keep taking your medicine and rest more. I just wanted an instant solution that’s not what I got. So that night I was talking with my team and I said “I think God wants me to spend time with him but I don’t know how to do that…”. They were so encouraging and gave me tons of ideas and I was so thankful for that because I was about to drown. So that night I said some prayers and the next morning and through out Thursday I spent the day praying and journaling, God spoke to me so clearly and said “Taylor I want to show you how much I love you spend time with me and love me.” WHOA WHAT.. I was thinking holy crap ya know God just spoke to me again this doesn’t happen often. So I thought okay how can I do that. Lets do some positive self talk and encourage yourself to keep going everyday. Easy enough right? Well kind of. During the next day on Friday, I was praying again “hey God show me something to keep me going”. That night we had a worship service as a squad. (Back story.. my team talked about being on our knees more when being with God). So my teammate during the service gets down on her knees and prays. I was thinking “Hey I should do that too follow up with what we said we were going to do.” So I got down on my knees head to my knees and prayed. **This is the BIG moment**. So as I kneel singing and praying and God spoke to me again saying “You are so WORTHY and you are ENOUGH and I love you.” I bawled immensly. I had never felt more power over the words I had heard ever. That night I just cried and cried during worship and I needed to get up and leave. I was so over taken by the glory of God that he could just take me into his arms and feel that fatherly love I was so longing for. As God continues to teach me my worth I struggle but knowing that he is with me everyday is so encouraging. Knowing that he loves me as much as he loves every one and that he created me in his image is so powerful. I always knew that but never implied it. GOD IS SO GOOD. He is taking me on a romantic journey teaching me what TRUE LOVE is.
