India was my highest point I have had with the Lord. India was a month filled with laughter, uncertainty, love, and growth. You add the warm, fuzzy, closeness with God and you have a simply unforgettable month.
In India we worked with an organization and 8 hours outside of Hyderabad in a small city. While in Anantapur, India we spent every day doing door to door ministry, praying, and preaching. Every night we would go to a different village ranging from twenty minutes to a two and a half hour drive. In each village we would go door to door to believers and nonbelievers to lay hands and pray for them. We would be given a blessing of coffee, chai tea, cookies, fruit, and other snacks at nearly every house. By the end of the night you would be full, and praying that we wouldn’t get any more blessings of cookies or tea. After praying for the community we would have house church. We would put on impromptu skits, sing songs, and give sermons. Then be fed dinner, of course we were still full of mostly cookies. The host feeding us dinner or the people who we prayed for never took “no, thank you” for an answer when food was involved.
India was filled with so much prayer, laughter, time to sit and read or just talk to Him. What all goes into building and strengthening a relationship with our Father. My team and I poured into each other, and gave each other one last push before team changes happened. I felt the presence of the Lord, got my ass in the river (world race term), and dove in deeper than I had ever been with the Lord before. In my head I began thinking “yes! I want more and more of You. I want even more communication, and to be more intimate with Him”. I was stoked.
I came to Nepal, still on a high note. Then one morning I woke up, feeling a great heaviness spiritually. I was filled with lies and began having my character attacked.
Nepal has been an absolutely amazing experience, so much beauty, and filled to the brim with adventure. My team spent the first week putting on a VBS (vacation bible school) and loving on the children in an IDP (internally displaced person) camp. We went to an orphanage in Urlabari, Nepal. Then we hiked to a small village called Dungdunge to build an addition onto a school.
In Nepal, I began to go through my past, to dive deeper. To find the why behind the choices in my past and , to find the deeper issues. As I began digging, I had to fight lies attacking my self worth. “You will never be good enough”, or “you would have never acted that way if you were a real Christian”, or my favorite “what are you doing here, you do not belong here with them”.
I am more than good enough, I was made perfect in His image. I may have not made the best decisions in my life, but I am here now. I firmly believe that God has used and will continue to use my past and story to bring kingdom. In Ezekiel 2, God chooses Ezekiel to reach his people of Israel. In verses 6-10 this is God talking to Ezekiel preparing him for his mission.
6 Don’t be afraid of them or of anything they say. You may think you’re in the middle of a thorn patch or a bunch of scorpions. But be brave 7 and preach my message to them, whether they choose to listen or not. 8 Ezekiel, don’t rebel against me, as they have done. Instead, listen to everything I tell you.
And now, Ezekiel, open your mouth and eat what I am going to give you.
9 Just then, I saw a hand stretched out toward me. And in it was a scroll. 10 The hand opened the scroll, and both sides of it were filled with words of sadness, mourning, and grief.
God uses everything including, the pain, discomfort, sadness, and grief. The parts that we think are too ugly. The parts that we think no one will understand, or will love us if they knew us. He uses all parts of us to reach people, to love people, to warn people, to help people before jumping off the cliff, to fix them and bring them back once they gone to far. God can use you to reach the orphans, the prostitutes, the lost, the abandoned, the forgotten, the misfits, the ones who seem like they have it all together, the politicians. God will use you exactly where you’re at.
I’m still not sure as to where I am being called to, or who God is calling me to be specify. One thing I am absolutely sure of is, is that I simply love, love. I just want to love whoever I can love. I want to meet them in wherever they are at and show them who Jesus is. I want to love like He does, and for the Father to use me to reach the unreachable, the outcasts, the hard to love. 
