Hello hello! Thank you all so much for your support and encouragement! I truly feel blessed to have such a loving family of people in my life. Every single person I’ve talked to has blessed me with sweet words of life and has been excited for me. Im shocked every time which is silly of me.
I currently have about 7,000 in my account. PRAISE GOD! He really is a good father. Last time I checked in with you all I had said I needed 9,000 to attend training camp and as you can see I don’t have that. But thankfully they are allowing me to attend training camp because many of you have committed to give to me but just haven’t yet! That committed money still counts and gets me to my goal hopefully. Please please please pray and consider funding me if you haven’t yet! If you aren’t able to this month, you always can next month. I don’t need to be fully funded until October (although now would be nice 🙂 ). Just a reminder you can easily give straight from this blog and its tax deductible!
I did promise to give an update on what Gods doing in my heart so here it goes. Last week I went to my very last youth group camp which is kinda really sad but also not because God really showed up. I had been feeling really weak before the camp. Physically weak from travel pills, spiritually weak because of the enemy, and emotionally weak because of both of those weaknesses. I felt confused a burdened and didn’t completely know why. I just felt like the enemy was really weighing down on me and trying to keep me from God. So the first night I cried out in worship and just wanted to hear God. Just to hear his voice. I heard him say he loved me and throughout that night and the rest of the camp he confirmed his voice and what he said through my friends and the messages. I didn’t really know why he told me that at the time and I honestly didn’t want to hear it. But then I realized that “I love you” was the exact answer I needed to every prayer I’ve had recently. Ive been asking him to remind me of who he is to me and who I am to him and why I have him in my life and why I’m doing what I’m doing. It’s all because of his love. He has always been the source and reason for love in my life. Now he’s calling me to love others unconditionally like he’s loved me. That’s why I’m the person that am, and why I’m doing what I am. People need his love. Then the next night of camp I felt burdened again and my friend turned to me and told me God was smiling down on me. In that moment I just heard God say that he’s just smiling at me and I should be smiling too. He’s just proud of me and so happy I’m following him because he loves me. He just wanted to stop worrying about the enemy and how he was trying to hurt me and start just focusing on God, and he will take care of the enemy.
I feel like God has really been preparing me for this trip and given me things to hold on to when things get hard during it. I just need to hold on to his love and remember that he’s smiling at me. No I’m not perfect, I make tons of mistakes and fail him every day and the enemy would like me to focus on that. But God is concerned about my heart and my heart is his. He’s got me and I don’t need to worry. Hopefully this wasn’t too boring or confusing. Maybe this encouraged some of you. I leave for training camp tomorrow and will fill you guys in when I get back!
