Where are all the blogs?
Blogs are hard, well at least to me. I just want to give you a little bit of my perspective, about why blogs are so hard for me. Because I do appreciate all my supporters and I am doing really amazing things and it’s not that I don’t want to share. I hope you can read this and see and understand where I’m at.
One blogs are hard because you have to find time to sit down and think about what you want to write about. For some people this is incredibly easy they can write blogs in 15 minutes and they put blogs out all the time. But for me I have to really think about everything and think about how to explain it in away that people who aren’t her can understand. Also I’m not the best writer and sometimes my thoughts aren’t as clear as I need them to be. Then on top of that I live and spend 24/7 with 6 other women and we tented to have very similar experiences and I read there blogs and realized we basically wrote the same blog. I’m an original person and I don’t like to be put into a box. I want to do things differently and be one of a kind. Yes there is a little bit of pride in that, I’m working on it. The third reason I’m on a squad of 60 people who are incredibly talented and it’s hard to not compare yourself to them. We have some amazing writers, in fact I have one on my team. It’s hard to not compare my stories and my blogs to theirs. I’m only a human guys we all compare ourselves to others I’m also working in this. And finally the race is just hard sometimes and I don’t really know how to write about that. Going on a journey that strips you of everything you’ve have for the past 26 years of life and you go with a bunch of strangers who turn into your family that you hate them one moment and love them so deeply at the same time.
The truth is I hate blogs, they are hard for me. The truth is I’m not perfect and I mess up daily. The truth is the world race is hard! The truth is I’m a human and I struggle with pride and compassion which makes writing blogs extremely hard. The truth is I’m tired and I miss my bed and tv and driving my car and alone time. But the real truth is i wouldn’t want to be anywhere also because I’m growing and I know at the end of this it will be all worth is. Wether I write 100 blogs or just 1, I know that my supporters believe in me and that I’m supported. I know the lord loves me and he’s called me here not matter how hard it is and he is transforming my heart day by day. I know life can be tricky sometimes but it will get better, it has to because we are always on our way to the top of the mountain. There’s a great quote by billy ghram “mountaintops are for views and inspiration, but fruit grows in the valley.” So know things won’t always be this way, that’s for all of us including me I need this reminder daily.
So friends please se my heart, because I love all of you so much and I’m beyond grateful for each of you! And I’m growing and working on things just like you and blogs are hard but I am trying.
-TaylorB
