Dear Lord,
Man more often than not these days, I wish I could just pick up the phone and call you.
You really should step into the twenty first century.
I always find myself writing you letters or notes, when I would much rather pick up the phone and call you.
Not that wifi is great around the world anyways. It would probably cut out and I would get annoyed, if we’re being honest.
But seriously Lord, I have some things that we need to talk about. These past 8 months have been hard, you really did some crazy things. I’m still unsure of the reasons for why you’ve done some of the things you’ve done.
You’ve taken me to the tops of mountains, to the depths of the seas, the lush green forests, and the dry dry desert. All both physically and spiritually.
I’m ready to go home and never go home all at the same time. I never really know how I’m feeling, I’m pretty sure I’m crazy.
There are times when I know you’re right next to me, I see you and hear you so clearly. But those times when you don’t answer that phone or that letter, I’m just sitting, waiting, wondering where you’ve gone.
Man, I just wish you had a phone for me to pick up and call, so you could just hear me out. Sometimes you’re the only one who I can talk to.
So I’ll just settle for writing you this letter.
Lord I need you, I need my best friend who gets me, who created me, who has the answer when I can’t see clearly. The one who has the plans, the best tour guide I know (because this trip is crazy without one), the one who knows my every need, and the one who comforts me when I don’t even know that I need comfort.
Lord, my ways are not as good as yours and I fail a lot. This lifestyle that I live is hard, traveling the world, never really having clear direction, or any independence. I fail more often that I want to admit, it seems lately I’ve been crawling more than walking. I just can’t seem to find my footing anymore, I kind of want to give up. I need new guidance, and I could use a helping hand too.
So Lord, please get a cell phone so I can just call you and tell you about my life, because I’m tired. I don’t like writing, and I just want to hear your voice.
Lord, I love you.
I’ll catch ya on the flip side.
-TaylorB
