Detox: A process or period of time in which one abstains from or rids the body of toxins.
So the past 10 days I have spent cut off from the world, I was on a mental, spiritual, and physical detox. I didn’t know that what was going to happened when I left 10 days ago for training camp but that is what I got, and its exactly what I needed.
10 days ago I wasn’t fully convinced I could live out of a backpack for a year, give up all my comforts of my home, all the unhealthy food I love, and all my friends and family. I packed all the things I would need for 10 day and all my insecurities into my backpack and got onto a plane and flew to Georgia for training camp. Up until the plane took off at 5am this whole thing wasn’t real for me yet, it had been a dream that I’ve been fighting to make happen, but I didn’t think it was possible. I arrived at training camp with tons of fears, I had never camped before in my life. I had practiced putting up my tent just so I would know what I was doing, and I had practiced packing, but in reality I had no clue what I was getting into. Then on top of those fear I was meeting 55 people I would be spending my next year of my life with, thats a lot of pressure, and I had no idea what training camp was going to look like for the next 10 day. I felt overwhelmed and like I wasn’t going to be able to make it the whole 10 days.
Day 2, I was challenged to just be with God, which can sound silly just be with God. But I hadn’t just been in the Lords presences in so long, it was always in the “church made moment” like music, lights, the whole 9 yards. I didn’t know what it was like to just be with him. It challenged me and I didn’t know how I felt about that. Then Day 3, came and the Lord wrecked me in the best way. Over the next few day He broke down walls I had built up for years, and showed me what it looks like to have people love you through your mess of a life.
Day 4, This was “Girls Day” we were all so excited cause the boys were gone on a hiking trip, and we got to have a day with all girls. HAHA I worked my butt of this day, we worked out the majority of the day, we literally carried each other on our backs, did pushup, sit-ups, lungs, squats, all of it but I spent the day laughing and sweating my butt off with a bunch of girls none of us knowing if we were going to make it. But I had fun doing it with them, we became a unit doing all the tasks/exercises together.
Day 8, I was gross, sweaty, smelly, tired, my butt hurt from sitting on the ground all the time, I had been wearing the same gross shirt that I wore the day before, I hadn’t had my phone or looked at it, I was hungry, I was completely cut off from the outside world, and we had been doing team building activities all week to put us into teams. The teams I had been on were rough to put it nicely. Then we got our official teams and I couldn’t be more thankful, we may on the out side look like we don’t go together. But I know I have so much to learn from these 6 girls, we couldn’t be more different and it won’t always be easy to love them but I’m choosing to love them through everything over the next year. When you take worldly comforts away and you find true deep connections with people.
Day 10, As I packed up my things to come back home, I realized something… That I made it, I made it the whole 10 days, and I loved it. I almost didn’t want to leave. I was gross, dirty, tired, but I no longer feared the things I had when I came. I lost all my insecurities somewhere along the and picked up a joy that words can’t explain. I left all my worldly things for 10 day and I came home a new person, I was refreshed by the love of the father. My mind, body, and soul and been recharged. And I couldn’t be more ready for my trip, to bring love to people all over the world, people who don’t even understand what love is. To bring hope to the hopeless, to show them theres a light at the end of that tunnel, that there is hope in all situations.
I’m so thankful for the past 10 day, they were by no means easy but exactly what i needed. I’m also so thankful to our leadership team for all the love they showed us and for sacrificing their time to be with us. I can’t wait to go to india in 40 days!
-T
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