Every night on the Race, teams meet together for team time and feedback. Feedback is a time for us to build each other up and help each other grow into the women that God created us to be. This month during feedback, my team encouraged me to trust God with the unknown.
I’ve been a planner my entire life. I’ve thrived on planning events, schedules and my life as a whole for the past twenty-two years. Trusting God is easy for me when it comes to the big things, but I struggle with trusting Him with the everyday small things.
I realized this when I would get frustrated when my teammates would tell me to just trust God when I would begin to worry about something. I would think to myself:
“Why not just plan for the worst?”
“It’s better to be prepared.”
“God gave us a brain so we would use it.”
But where is the room for God to show up when I try to do everything myself?
Over these past two months the planner side of me has come out way too much. Fear has overwhelmed me at times and I’m tired of it. I don’t even know what it is that I’m afraid of.
But what I do know now is that I’m more afraid of missing out on all of the whimsical things that God has in store for me because of my fears. I’m learning the show can still go on without a plan, and sometimes it turns out even better. I just need to trust God enough to know that I’m never too far out of His reach, even if something goes wrong or someone gets hurt.
So from now on, if there is no plan..I won’t make one. Adventures are where the memories come from and adventures are hardly ever planned. My God has my back and no one can take care of me like He does, not even myself.
