…Do I love Jesus? That is a question that many people in my life may ask themselves. Why would I love someone who I can’t see and can’t physically wrap my arms around? I could start by spewing out biblical terminology and Christian lingo, but this blog isn’t for Christians. This blog is for those I love who don’t have a relationship with Jesus. Because of the shear fact that so many of us are on different paths, I have never been able to share my true heart about my passion for God. God is like the wind and love to me. You can’t see it or touch it but you can feel it so powerfully. That feeling of sheer joy you get when you first fall in love, that yearning down in the deepest part of your being, that’s what I get every morning knowing that I get to depend on and live for my God!
Welcome into my heart for just a few moments to see why I love Jesus:
– After I spent nights out drinking and seeking men for love, God continued to change my hearts desires to do those things.
– When I prayed that God would allow me to go out with my Girls numerous times, have fun and drink, but not get completely wasted…HE GAVE ME THE STRENGTH TO DO SO because we all know that I never had strength not to do that on my own.
– When I prayed I wouldn’t marry someone that He did not intend for me, HE ANSWERED with a small voice in my heart saying, “He is not for you, He is a great man, but I have a godly man that is being shaped just you. I know you think you love this man enough to marry him, but it’s not right for you or him, PLEASE TRUST ME, I HAVE YOUR BEST INTEREST IN MIND, I KNOW BETTER THAN YOU.”
– When I was so down and sad about where to go in my life, HE ANSWERED WITH THE WORLD RACE. What I LOVE about this one is that every single thing about it was GOD. Most of you know I never wanted to go on The World Race, never even thought about it, I don’t rough it and I sure as heck don’t deal with dirty situations well. God knew I needed to be stretched, ripped out of my little bubble, I needed a different perspective for a bit to GET IT!
Though not even the main reasons I love my God, these are just a few ways I can share with you why I wake-up every morning more in love with my God and wanting to do what He has called me to. I don’t claim that it’s easy, that I don’t get pissed off at God a lot, or that this life is full of me always getting what I want. But I do claim that even in the hardest times I feel His comfort in the most inner part of my being. I have tried to make myself God of my life, tried making the ambition to make money my God and even comfort a God, but I never felt as full as I do now. So many people have told me that I am glowing right now, I look happier than ever (no make-up, no cute clothes and hair pulled back…how could that be. lol) and I want to tell you that IS SOLEY GOD WORKING IN MY LIFE. It’s not because I’m traveling the world doing great things, it’s because God is working in my life and changing my heart. He just happened to want to do it in 11 different countries.
I love you all so much. Even if our beliefs grow further from each other, MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE! I pray that you all will know the Lord in His timing, but for now know that you mean everything to me and I thank you for all you are to me!
