About 7 years ago God answered my desire for a groaning hunger for his word and for prayer. I wanted to pray all the time. My best friend, Traci and her now husband Rich and I would spend hours together praying for each other, the nations, social injustices, etc… This is the same time in my life where the Lord started speaking to me in ways I previously knew nothing about. God began to speak to me through visions, trances, words of knowledge as I prayed for people and even allowing me to heal. I could share countless testimonies, but that is not my intent in writing this specific blog.
The reason I am writing about this is that over time I have supressed this gifting of prophesy and intercession, because I began to feel rejected by people to fully operate in all that God had gifted me to do. It was a subtle thing and did not happen at once, but many people questioned me, did not understand and even blatantly mocked me for my belief that the gifts of the spirit were still present and active in the church today. I would use my giftings less frequently and felt hindered.
Recently, my best friends from GA, Steen and Amanda, and I went to visit my friend Traci and her husband Rich. One night while we were there we spent 5 hours just praying! Oh, how I love to pray. Well, we prayed over Steen and I got to use my gifings again. It was so freeing. Then, they all prayed for me and tears continued to stream down my face as I was in complete agreement with everything they prayed over me. I had been experiencing the spirit of rejection in my life. So, I prayed and forgave everyone whom had rejected me in the past as well as bound the spirit of rejection that was over me. I had so much freedom pouring out of me! And, I once again was completely confident and free to use my gift of prophecy and intercession. And, I prayed over Traci and her husband, led by the spirit, and the Lord spoke to me.
God has reminded me again and again that we are called to bring the Kingdom of God to earth. We are to be restorers of all creation! And, I am called to do that by freely using the giftings I have been given. I am called to be an extravagant lover! Just like Mary of Bethany was misunderstood because of her extravagant love for Jesus, I too will not fear man and love Christ EXTRAVAGANTLY!
I am currently reading a book called “The New Mystics” by John Crowder. I am really excited to continue to read about the men and women who were forerunners and visionaries of the past all the way to present day. I want to follow in their footsteps and blaze the trail ahead of where they left off. I am a forerunner in this generation.
PS. email me if you are curious about my spiritaul gifting, or about testimonies where God allowed me to heal, prohesy, etc… I would love to share with you. And, TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY! – That I will not be seen, but that I would be invisible and only the radiant love of Jesus would shine forth from me. That through the testmonies and through my life that only Jesus would be remembered, not me.
