Josh is realizing his identity in a new way that is allowing him to move in a new level of confidence. God has broken off the fear of failure by Josh choosing to believe and speak life over himself as well as using me to speak truth and encouragement into him. I struggled with rejection in the past in such a way that I almost completely stopped operating in the giftedness God gave me through the Holy Spirit. I am also relinquishing control and areas of pride, selfishness and manipulation. Just like josh I am now moving in a new level of confidence and humility; not having to always be right.
Josh and I wake up each morning and speak the word of God to each other proclaiming that we are the “apple of his eye,” “the daughter and son of the King,” “more than conquerors,” “God’s voice on planet earth and that we have something to say and we are going to say it.” These are just some examples of truths in scripture that we speak over one another. And, get this, after saying it everyday we finally are beginning to believe it. It is sad that we all really don’t believe it the first time we hear it. I mean, maybe we think we do, but it takes some time to really sink into our hearts so that it changes the way that we live and act. I encourage all of you reading this to wake up tomorrow and look at yourself in the mirror and begin to proclaim who God says that you are. I promise your days will look a lot different once it sinks into your heart and mind.
As you believe what God says about you, you begin to only want and desire God. Things that distracted you before and caused your mind to wander away from God’s calling are no longer a temptation. When God speaks you only want to listen and obey, because you trust and know his heart and intentions for you. You finally understand the depths of his love and come to a realization not only in thought, but in reality and daily living that nothing else can satisfy you like He can. Through this revelation I am learning to let go of so much, such as “my plans.” Even my plans as to when I think it is best for Josh and I to have children and how I think that all fits in with our future. Why am I trying to play God? Why do I think I should be the one in control of things? I spend a lot of my time in my imagination and in the future, dreaming about what Josh and I will do next. But, recently I have let it all go. I am not holding onto anything anymore. I am content and free in a completely new way.
It is funny when you release everything to God how he brings things together. Life just seems to make so much more sense now. I know that this has already been the best thing that could have happened to our marriage. I am content in each day and I look at my Beloved husband with a deeper understanding of who he is. We are moving forward in complete synchronization and it is so incredible that when the Lord speaks to Josh he always speaks the same thing to me in confirmation. We are on the same page, moving forward with this hunger and fire in us that is contagious. Together in Christ, we know that we are unstoppable ad we have a generation to activate into their calling and purpose; to be the 42nd generation. (To understand more on this go to www.g42global.org)
PS. In honor of thanksgiving I would like to share why I am so thankful for my husband. Sometimes I just look at him and my heart smiles on the inside of my skin. He is and always will be the most amazing gift God could have ever given to me. Joshua is the perfect combination of every good thing I can think of. He is humble, gentle, loving, fierce, a warrior, a fire-breathing man of God, a leader, he makes me laugh, is breathtaking, a lover, a peace bringer, an amazing teacher/speaker, full of grace, passionate about the Kingdom, an activator for this generation, inspiring, great listener, he gives the perfect hugs, and he just loves me the way I am. Oh, and he has the best smile on the planet! Joshua is the best thing God ever created! And, the best thing is I get to do this life with him every single day. I think my favorite part of the day is when we first wake up and smile at each other, greeting the day with this unspoken love for one another and the joy of the how God will use us together that day to awaken others into this LIFE.
