It is day 6 at the World Race Training Camp, and I wish I could explain everything that has been happening here! I walked into this place completely nervous about the things that we would be doing and with all the people I will be meeting…I had my own expectations that I had to ask God to take away! I’m not going to lie, it is hard, but it is completely thrilling to know that God is preparing me for something amazing!
We are being broken of our comforts, of our expectations, of our own selfish desires and being reminded and taught to look at the Big Picture! We are here to GLORIFY OUR GOD! WE ARE HERE TO BE USED TO ADVANCE HIS KINGDOM! Last night was one amazing night! The Holy Spirit filled the room that we were in and gave me a little reminder of who I am and who He is! I’ve been struggling lately on really believing that God is mighty and questioning what He can actually do. I believe that he is real…completely real….but I’ve been feeling empty and letting Satan speak lies into my ears. You see, I compare myself to everyone around me, especially here at training camp. I see the gifts that God has given them…the natural leaders, the healers, the ones with such intimacy with God that they are so in tuned to what He is saying…and I ask Him what He is doing with me….what gifts could I possibly have to offer for his Kingdom?! Satan tries his hardest to tell me that I am no good and that I have nothing to offer for God’s Kingdom! And I buy into that…I’ve been buying into that! I’ve been feeling alone and empty, and last night I asked God to reveal Himself to me, to remind me that He is still around that I have something to offer Him. He did! After someone prayed over me, I felt a relief…I felt the Holy Spirit on me, but I still wanted more! One of the alumni racers that is helping with training this week, her name is Jane Kim, came over to me last night and told me that I needed to read Psalm 40, and proceeded to read another piece of scripture to me! I couldn’t even hear what she was reading to me b/c I couldn’t believe that she told me that I should read my favorite piece of scripture. You see, Psalm 40 was the first piece of scripture that really connected me to Christ and has been in a special place in my heart. How could she possibly know that that was so special to me?! I looked at her afterwards and told her what that scripture meant to me. Jane told me that God told her that she should share it with me! God revealed Himself to me! He reminded me of how grand He is! I know that He is with me! I know that He has something crazy, and wild, and amazing waiting for me! I’m ready for Him! I’m ready to be stupid for Him!
Please pray for me. Pray that God will continue to reveal Himself to me! That I will be consistently reminded of His presence!
