I was having a one on one (race lingo) with a squad mate the other day when he asked, “What do you struggle with? You seem like you have it all together.” I sat there for a minute then had to answer honestly, “I don’t know.” It’s sounds a little ridiculous, even to my ears, and its something I decided I need to pray into this month. What do in struggle with? Why don’t I know? How can I fix that?
This morning, as I sat on top of a mountain in the Philippines, watching the sun come up and talking to Jesus, He told me to read Nahum. Seems a little random, but isn’t that just like my God? 🙂 These verses stuck out to me….
Nahum 1:2,3 & 7
“The Lord is a jealous and avenging God;the Lord is avenging and wrathful; the Lord takes vengeance in his adversaries and keeps wrath for His enemies.
The Lord is slow to anger and great in power, and the Lord will by no means clear the guilty.
The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; he knows those who take refuge in him. “
Man, He’s an awesome God! He’s jealous of His people and will fight for what is right but He’s so good and cares so well for what is His. That’s me. I am His and He cares well for me! He does and I don’t know why. I started thinking about my life and how blessed I am. I don’t have a lot of struggles. I’ve been blessed beyond anything I can ask or think. I was placed in one, no two, of the most blessed countries in the world and born into a family who loves the Lord and taught me to do the same. I have grandparents who stand firm on God’s Word and have never stopped pouring it into my life. I have parents who taught me the importance of hard work and Godly character, I have siblings who adore me and would do anything for me. I have friends who might as well be siblings because they treat me just as well.
As I sat processing all of that, I was overwhelmed. I’m traveling the world meeting people in all stages and struggles of life and I feel so unworthy of what I’ve been blessed with. That’s because I am. I’m not worthy of any of it, but I am grateful for it.
Paul tells us to be content with whatever we have. That doesn’t just mean being ok with the hard things, it also means appreciating the good things – not wishing them away with feelings of unworthiness.
So what do I struggle with? I still don’t know and I definitely don’t have it all together and, for now, I’m ok with that. It’s hard to see the struggle through all the good right now. But I know they’re there and when they present themselves, we’ll (Jesus and me) figure it out as we go.
I joke all the time that I’m Jesus’ Favorite and I really do believe it, but, here’s the thing. Aren’t we all?
What has the Lord done lately to remind you that you’re His Favorite?
