Well this is it! I’m sitting on the plane, ready to do go to Peru. All of the chaos and confusion and whirling drama of renting the condo and selling the car, the fundraising efforts, Power of Attorney arrangements and infinite calls have finally come to a screeching halt. The pressure has been great, but I think what God wants to do in me is greater.
While sitting here I feel terribly insecure, scared, sad, and conflicted. Is this really the right choice? Is leaving everyone and everything I know in hopes of something fantastic really the right thing to do? It is such a drastic change, can I even do it?
I reached for my “Love Letters from God” book, hoping for some consolation in what the Lord wants to tell me. With anxiety racing through in my whole being and a lump in my throat, I read ” O, my child, how I thank you for being obedient. I gave you every talent that you have to equip you for the ministry. Be prepared for the unexpected. Miracles are coming your way every day. There are no coincidences in life. A coincidence is simply a miracle in which I choose to remain anonymous.”
These confirmations made my whole being drop and relax with a peace I haven’t felt in some time. I became overwhelmed with a confidence in my heavenly father’s love and plans for me. This is where I am supposed to be at this exact time.
Before leaving home for the trip, Mom took me aside and shared a scripture she felt the Lord wanted me to hear. “You have been chosen for such a time as this.” Esther 4:14.
As I was settling in my seat, and thinking about all of these confirmations, the first overhead announcement came, “Good morning, this is Esther, your lead flight attendant…” (No coincidences…)
During the silence, the questions, doubt and anxiety disappeared. Now, there is only His amazing Peace. Now I feel like I am being carried in the safe and loving arms of Jesus.
So I take a deep breath, dry my tears and hear Esther overhead saying: “Prepare for departure.”
