The Lord has been growing a longing and desire to pursue more long-term missions with Him. This is what originally led me to the World Race a couple years ago after a short-term trip to Peru with my college ministry. I launched with my original squad in August of 2017 as a participant, and then launched again in August of 2018 as an alumni team leader. I thought for sure my time was done. I tied a bow on that season. I prayed about next steps and the Lord led me to do ‘Center for Global Action’ here in Gainesville. Then, a couple of months ago, I felt my heart stirring yet again.
Basically, my prayers looked a lot like they did in Peru. “Lord, if you could lead me into a life of full time missions, I would be so happy”. One night as I prayed to the Lord, Stephanie Janson reached out to me via messenger asking me to consider squad leading in the Fall.
I prayed about it a ton, and almost said no. I want to be real with you guys because it wasn’t an easy decision for me. I thought that rationally, I needed to continue working and staying in Gainesville until January so that I could save enough money to pay myself back for all of the things I spent money on these past two years. When money motivates your decisions above obedience.. yikes.
Jesus is patient, and his gentle nudge led me back to the thing I was putting off until I could afford it on my own. That being, squad leading! So, I have decided to do that hard thing that is opposite of what seems rational.
You guys, I’m squad leading!! Crazy. Don’t make no sense, but God is good!
Training camp happened this past week. It was a lot of tilling up hardened ground and sewing new seeds in my heart. Tilling is painful to watch if your comparing it to tilling a heart. And, that it did. Haha! But, it was also life giving, a blast, and my capacity to be filled by the Father grew immensely because of all the pouring out. I am thankful. My squad is perfect. My leadership team are my kind of people. Sweet, kind, affirming, yet also challenging me to be more like Christ and to walk in the fullness of my identity and calling.
My new team is E.T. (Phone home). Haha. What a great coleader. God’s gonna do some things and I am thankful!
Xoxo God is so good. My heart is full!
