Risk, adventure, and the unknown exploration that comes with pursuing Jesus seemed like a natural byproduct of relationship with him. Out of fear of the unknown, I ignored my calling and pursuit of Jesus and settled for a cookie cutter life that was not my own.. because it just didn’t make sense for me to pursue missions, and networking, and dreaming. I would look at brave people in my life who were doing great things (in my eyes), and want the same courage, but was too afraid to admit that I needed something, and that it would possibly take receiving from others to get me to where I wanted to go.
Long story short, at 24 I felt pretty stuck. I just really desired discipleship on a personal level. Not just discipleship where you meet with someone once a week for coffee and just talk (I did have that and I am so thankful for you Meredith!). I was truly desiring immersion in a body and fellowship of believers who were completely sold out for the kingdom of God. A body of believers who lived together, did ministry together, and knew each other deeply.
I believe I have found this community through the World Race and now through Adventures in Missions at CGA. This is a place where, you can’t ‘hide yo kids or yo wife’. I’ve literally never been more exposed. I live with 8 other girls right now and we attend discipleship classes during our morning hours. We eat, sleep, share joys and pain, and walk each other through healing.
I am thankful for my time here thus far because I am learning more and more of what it means to live my life on a hilltop, how to be hospitable, how to love brothers and sisters in Christ well, how to love myself better, and how to be a leader. I actually invite hard feedback into my life because I want to be transformed into Christ’s image. I’m seeing a counselor. I am meeting with someone now who is helping me walk through my kingdom identity. This is definitely a healing season.
I know I am here at CGA for this season to be able to impart and multiply what the Lord has done through me in the future. Currently, I’m praying into a couple of options presented to me once this discipleship program is over. But, I am choosing to stay in Gainesville over the summer to continue working at the hospital and saving money in the event that the Lord calls me overseas again to lead another group of post college adults in the Fall.
If you feel led to become a monthly donor toward my mission’s fund with ‘Adventures in Missions’, I am currently still fundraising and need to raise 2,000$ in order to be fully funded by May 13th. Donating is best done by going directly to the top of my blog page and clicking donate and then following that link. Or, if ‘Venmo’ works best for you, I am also using that!
I know this is a ton of word vomit, but I wanted to post a blog because I hadn’t in a while!! I am ALIVE and well. How can I be praying for you? Please comment below. Also, it’s hard to stay connected with most people, let alone my family. So, I am sorry I don’t do the best job with connecting while away, but I am always open to new messages and would love to chat if you want to schedule a call with me. Thanks for staying subscribed and for loving me so well!
Tamara
