“The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” Proverbs 16:19.
I am not a planner and everyone who knows me well, knows that. It’s NOT laziness, I can proudly say that I’m a hard working person. I just enjoy spontaneity. All of my best friends are planners, so naturally I drive them crazy, but they still keep me around. I figure part of that is because if they plan something at the last minute, they know if I’m able, I will go on short notice. For day to day life, I can get by without planning far in advance, but it doesn’t work that way when I look further than a few months into my future. Planning is not optional for some things.
This journey is full of planning, so just committing was out of my comfort zone. And for the last few months, I have been planning. Planning the next five months of fundraising, personal finances, jobs, and much more…I’m not used to it.
Planning so far ahead you would think gives a peace about the future, because you “know” where you will be. Truthfully though, I only know where I desire to be and where I believe God wants me to be. There are so many unknowns. The unknowns scare me. I know that at this time next near, I will have experienced more spiritually than I ever thought possible. I have that expectation. Still, there are countless unknowns in front of me…but in light of the Gospel, there is more known than we often choose to believe.
Believing in Christ really is simple, yet we make it so complicated. I am a very rational person, which can sometimes turn into doubt…but I always come back to the known and what makes sense to me. I know God is All-knowing, good, faithful, just, and righteous. He’s never failed me. With Christ in mind, my perspective changes. What is unknown to myself is known to God, making it good. Even if it’s painful, like I’m expecting some parts of this journey to be, I know that it’s meant to draw me closer to my Father.
“Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” Isaiah 43:19. We do not have to fear the unknown, because with Christ we can be confident! As the old hymn sings, “whatever my lot Thou hast taught me to say; it is well, it is well with my soul.” So whatever this journey brings, I am confident in the One directing it.
Support update!
Because of God’s faithfulness and the generosity of twenty people, I am 18% of the way to being fully funded! From the bottom of my heart, I am thankful! I have 22 out of the goal of 150 prayer & financial partners! If you are willing, will you prayerfully consider joining me in my journey? If so, please, click the orange “Donate” button at the top of the page. Thank you and God Bless!
