I hate my life. Hate is such a strong word, but it seems that I must to some degree in order to followthrough with this journey. Okay, so it’s not a literal hate, but a hate in comparison to how much I love Jesus Christ. So much is happening here in my all too comfortable American life, that was not happening when I first committed to this trip. Yet and still, I know there’s nothing in this world that compares to knowing Christ as my Savior, and someone somewhere, who I do not yet know will experience that knowledge for the very first time because of this step of obedience to Jesus and I’m confident of that. Although it’s hard to think ahead like that all the time.
In John 12:25-26a Jesus says, “The one who loves his life will lose it, and the one who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. If anyone serves Me, he must follow Me. Where I am, there My servant also will be…”
Jesus also said…
“If you want to be my disciple, you must hate everyone else by comparison–your father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters–yes, even your own life. Otherwise, you cannot be my disciple.” Luke 14:26 (NLT).
Obedience led Jesus to the Cross, but through His death and resurrection, God was glorified. Following Jesus costs each of us something different, and God’s will for us goes beyond the wildest dreams we have for ourselves. In life it’s easy to loose but so important to keep the right perspective. Life right now seems to be moving at a hundred miles per hour and I’m doing my best to keep hold of the confidence that God will bring meaning to the chaos of our lives if we love and trust in Him. Doubt will always sneak into our minds, as it has about this journey so many times these past five months, but great love leaves little doubt.
“We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us: we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.” -C.S. Lewis.
In two weeks I will head to training camp for 10 days. I will be able to meet my squad there (the people I will spend the next year with), as well as learn a lot more details, logistics, and what to expect on this eleven month journey. I am very nervous, but also excited. Prayers are greatly appreciated!
Support Update:
Thank you! I’m 43% funded! God is faithful. I have $10,263 left to raise and I’m praying to have it by August! If you would prayerfully consider supporting my journey and next step in my relationship with Jesus, just click the orange “Donate” button at the top of the page! If you have ANY questions at all, I would love to hear from you! Thank you so so much, God Bless!
These worship songs has been on my heart lately. Watch the videos below!
