It has been one month since I left home in Allen, Texas. God has been teaching me numerous things during this time, but one thing has seemed to be highlighted very clearly in my mind. This very thing has radically changed my walk with the Lord in the last four weeks. God has reminded me of this simple statement, I am a flower. The Lord has told me that in Him I contain all the colors of the rainbow: red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, and violet. In a world containing so much darkness it is so easy for us to accept the identity that is given to us by people, rather than God. The Lord during this previous month has challenged me to walk in the identity he has given me, rather than the world.
When we walk in the identity given to us by other beings we have a tendency to walk with slouching shoulders, a dim spirit, and a false confidence. But when we walk in confidence of our identity in the Lord, we walk in complete power. God is slowly revealing to me the importance of loving myself. It’s not loving myself that has impact but loving who God has created me to be; who God is in me. When we walk in this God given confidence we allow the spirit of the creator to overflow and pour into others. In many ways I recognized myself as a confident person. However, God very clearly redefined my definition of “confidence”.
This confidence I thought I contained was purely based on achievements, external factors, as well as the identity I had given myself. But in these last four weeks God has tugged on my heartstrings, redirecting my confidence in him rather than in myself. Through the years I have developed an identity based on my thoughts and who I wanted to be. But lately God has been breaking down this identity and giving me one in Him. Having “an identity in Christ” sounds like a very cheesy or cliché Christian thing to say. But to simplify it, it means; to actively walk out who God has called you to be.
So who has God called me to be, or “what is my identity in Christ Jesus?”. I am a flower, beautiful, vibrant, and seen. I contain all the colors of the rainbow and am loved by the creator of all things. I am red because I obtain a passion for the present moment. My spirit is orange because the warmth of the Lord rest within me. The Lord is yellow because He is one of optimism and joy, and so I am yellow. I am not always peaceful but because of Jesus I am green. I am blessed with the opportunity to access the spirit of peace that Jesus has placed in the deepest part of my being. I am blue because through the Lord I am a powerful wave crashing into the shore, yet I can be a calm body of water still in the presence of the Lord. God tells me I am indigo because I am dignified in the truth of the cross. Because the Holy Spirit is creative, I too am creative. My mind wanders in many directions simultaneously but doesn’t get lost because, the Lord is my direction.
The world will always try and tell me who I am. But my identity is not given to me by faulty, imperfect beings. My identity has roots that extend deep within the ground. These roots hold me firmly in place. I am unwavering and steady because of Jesus not because of anything I have done. The Lord calls me by name, calls me colorful, and tells me I perfect. I am a sinner, I make mistakes daily, but God does not see my sin he see’s my colors, and my colors are in the cross. Because of the cross, I am a flower.
