This is me! This is who I am and I am proud of it. The messy hair, the headbands, the nose ring, the too big jean jacket, the Jesus loving crazy girl. The girl who loves to travel, drink coffee, and meet new people. That’s me! This is who I am and it has taken me awhile to realize it. To realize I need to be myself and to know God created me to be that person.
I used to find my worth in others. In what other people told me and what they liked. I tried too hard to impress. I cared too much about what others thought. And I tore myself apart for it.
In the past 6 months I’ve finally fought this. I’ve begun to define what Sydney Adriana Warther actually likes and who she is. I’ve learned so much about myself, but most importantly about God.
The best part is I’ve never been so full of Joy than I have in these past 6 months.
Around 6 months ago I was in a bad place. I was confused and didn’t understand why everything/everyone in my life had to come to an end. I was confused because I did not know what I liked and what I wanted to do after high school. I felt so deeply alone. I faked the smile and lied to my friends. I pushed away everyone I had left. I felt unworthy.
Through this time I remember being in tears crying out to God. I kept praying, but kept feeling more hurt. I couldn’t understand. It was then, at my lowest point, where God took over. Crying on the floor of a bathroom, with people I trust, led to Joy. I saw new possibilities. New opportunities. I saw a future he had already planned for me.
One thing led to the next and I re-joined my old small group, applied for The world Race, welcomed my friends opinions and help, and continued to pray.
Recently God has been revealing to me just how big he is. And just how ever small I am. The fact he can just create something so awesome out of nothing just blows my mind every time! Check out the song “Bigger Than I Thought” by Passion. IT IS AMAZING!
This was a difficult one for me to share with you, but thank you for reading.
To everyone who has supported me financially, THANK YOU! I am 32% funded!
