This fall I went to a Hillsong United concert, and they performed the song So Will I (100 Billion X) and the lyrics
“If you gave your life to love them, so will I”
Have resonated deep in my soul ever since. The whole song talks about giving your everything to love the kingdom in the same ways that Jesus did and going where the Lord sends you to go. Unfortunately, it can be really difficult to know what God wants from us, and how exactly to do it. This difficulty had been weighing heavy on me the past several weeks and I was struggling with my why. Why am I doing this, why do I believe in my God, why do I keep getting knocked back down, why bother with any of it?
This most recent Easter weekend did so much more than simply reminding me of my why, but it shifted my soul for the better. The story of the death and resurrection of Jesus will forever be the best news for humanity, and regardless of the years after years of me hearing the story, this year I couldn’t help thinking of how I can give my life to love the people of the kingdom in the same ways that Jesus did. I worshipped Him, heard testimonies from all kinds of backgrounds and watched people commit their lives to Jesus through baptisms and I realized that He is so good.
He was doing big works this weekend in people’s hearts and I was able to witness it first hand and see just how much of a loving and providing Lord he is. He sees struggles and pain and transforms them into Holy Spirit movements and blessings, there were cracks in my foundation that were leading me to doubt and worry about my future, specifically about the race, it’s so easy to second guess if I’m doing the right thing, but the people who have been placed in my life through the race and the jump of faith I have taken by committing to this crazy journey has already pushed me further into God then i ever have before, and now there is nothing but excitement for my path. If you made it this far please send prayers and thought my way, i love you all
04/28/19
