Year 20 was one for the books. I spent all of it traveling but 8 weeks I was actually in my house. It was full of adventure, plane rides, fun food, different cultures, many kids crawling on me, and a just renewing in the way I think and want to love my Heavenly Father.
When I look back and think about everything it really just feels like a dream… if I would have told my little child self this I wouldn’t have believed it. I can’t even begin to describe how thankful I am to God for doing this to my life, the path I’m in the way I’m heading. He has it all in his hands and I’ve had no control over any of it. God has placed people in and out of my life that just constantly make me grow and change and I’m truly blessed.
That doesn’t mean it has all been easy though. With not being home comes a lot of missing out on big events in peoples life. It comes with coming back home and not knowing where you stand with friends or family because you have been gone for so long. Everyone has gone on with living without you and just not on purpose but forget you are around to ask you to do things when you are back.
This last year I was called to leave again as a leader which was a wrestle with just knowing if I could put my family and friends in the Lords hands while he was going to put a team of girls in my life to lead and disciple. I chose to lead obviously and the Lord is doing great things through this.
He is shaping me more more and molding me into something I didn’t know I could become. He is placing more in my hands and letting me choose whether I want them or not. He is teaching me what it’s like to fully process things and feel emotions I don’t necessarily want to feel.
So for a new year I am blessed to start it again in a new country. Surrounded by community that continues to push me higher and higher. I’m starting it in joy no matter the circumstances. Thanks God I never want to know what it would be like any other way.
Thank you to everyone again who has helped me get here I am tremendously blessed and full of love for you guys.
